"Beauty!!.. it's somthing that doesn't come into count by our outer observation, that's the true beauty."❤️

Love

Sab jaise fade ho gaya hai

3am Thoughts

Feeling like talking to someone. Is there anyone available?

He takes me for granted, ill-treats me yet I get back to him all the time. I really wanna move on but am unable to.

I'm feeling broken and defenseless. It's l have lost all the strengths and everything necessary for success or progress of any kind. I feel numb. I cannot willingly continue doing anything consistently. I have become lazy and hopeless in life. Lately, I've been talking to a girl, spending time with her. I've been really tensed about certain things about her and feeling insecure about it, from the smallest things like posting on social media, talking to other people, delaying responses, and other things. Since a few days ago she has reduced talking to me. Now I see her growing like anything, and I feel so jealous and sad about it. At first, I was fiddling with this emotion but now that started thinking about things a bit deep I've realized that it is not her it's me. I want to push her away at this point. I want her to hurt me and make me lose interest in her, as I did previously with Aman too. It's easy this way and I've been doing this subconsciously. Well, all I can say is this has led me to all this depression and laziness about myself. I don't respect my intuition, ideas, goals, time, importance, and presence Together, I don't respect myself anymore. Although I know I have capabilities that I talk about, the appearance and features god has given me, the sense and taste that I have been gifted with, the intelligence and kindness which all in all is so rare, but when I look at myself I don't respect a shit of this. I give assertion to their existence in me and condole myself whenever I feel low or feel dreamy. What a waste I am! I was thinking about why I am pushing away everything in life from love to career to passion to happiness to everything, I reason that arises is maybe because I grew up without a dad. I was always soft in school, never utilized my potential, never got the appreciation I deserve, or never gave into love so never felt loved and always blamed luck, but it is what it is. This is one reason I fear to love, I fear growth, I get jealous, I'm losing hair, and have thousands of other problems yet doing nothing about it. I don't know what will happen in life. But I know one thing for sure that if it keeps on going like it is now, I'm gonna lose all my health, my hair, my appearance, my stance, my left self-respect, my ego, my mind, and myself completely as well. Please God, save me. Only a miracle can have an effect on my brain and can make me better. All the best to everyone struggling out there.

Depression

Love isn't blind, love just don't judge ❤

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Adulting

Morning anxiety be like ~

Anxiety

If a girl is still in your mind even after half of year of no contact. Is it attraction or what??


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