Be proud of yourself. Be confident in your own skin. Dont care about what people will say because its not gonna matter anyway. People do not define you. YOU define YOURSELF. Believe in yourself and shine on!!!

Relationships

I feel like a bird put in a cage 
Wings cut off ...
Just because food and some love is showered on time 
Not ready to grow wings
Hurting myself by plucking my own wings....
Scared about falling and other elements and not giving up the warmth...


3am Thoughts

Feeling lonely

Am I the only one who feel alone all the time

Frustration

Hyderabad? 


ever felt like the pain is so heavy, and you wanna go at the top of a building and shout your lungs out and cry until its less pain. just venting out every ache, of how unfair everything is, of how everything turns out to be.. 

So its a long story...on april 2022 i like this guy and my close friend also like him but i didnt know at the time so i made the first move (and my close friend, lets call her ira knows about this) even though we were already chatting at the time but just about school works. In the middle of the month,there was this event and i was taking pictures with the guy,giving cake to him in front of ira then we got super close,he flirted with me, i flirted with him i bought him gifts,i stayed up in the middle of the night bc he needed someone to talk to...i think ive done so many good things for him but on july 2022 we just disconnect...we didnt talk much and he doesnt seem interested...on his birthday,i found out Ira gave him a gift too and I thought it was super weird but didnt think much of it but a week later i found out they were talking (me and the guy already stopped talking). Maybe after two weeks of them talking,the guy came back to me saying he have a lot of things to say but didnt say anything at all. So i tried talking to ira,telling her about the guy texting me while also texting her(which she didnt tell me herself that she was talking to him) and she didnt say anything except silence and "idk what to say im too shocked". On September 2022,ira told our mutual friend that it was my fault in april(on the day of the event) that she was super down.
I just dont get it how is it my fault? I did not know she likes him...i should be the one that's angry because she knew that i liked him she knew i was talking to him yet she still texted him... Is it my really my fault?
And somewhere in September she told me she had already stopped talking to him but it was a lie of course, right now as i am writing this they are texting with each other.
So after all this long story lmao is it truly my fault?


Why do nice guys always taken for granted? 
Now that I'm not always there to help her and value my time and energy over her. Suddenly she's now complaining and starting to miss me? 



Somebody asked me, 
Do I have any feelings for them? 

Which I declined. 
Even tho I had in past. 
Even tho, I knew they r just so right for me. 
Even tho, I wanna be in relationship with them
Even tho, I know they r so imperfectly perfect for me

Idk why I declined. 
Maybe because the way they asked me. 
Maybe because the situation they asked in. 
Maybe because I was to afraid to admit. 
Too afraid to be vulnerable. 
Afraid to lose them, after my response. 
What if they don't have any feelings? 


I don't always remember this moment. But sometimes when I do, I feel, weird. 











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