Be in relationships that bring out the best in you. Even strangers can bring out the worst in you. 

Very true. There is no point doing something that does not make you a better person. 

Relationships

Today I realized I have nobody to call mine... going through alot of stuff busy have no on be to take emotional support from... I feel depressed... I can't share anything with my parents, no frmds,nmy boyfriend doesn't give a fuck... he wants a break from me cause I need emotional support... I sometimes feel im worthless n don't deserve to live... but never had the courage to not Stay alive... I feel blank n lost...

Each day brings with it a new slate to fill. It can have traces of previous drawings but it is yet manageable. 

Other

I am fighting with almost every problem from last five years, temporal, financial, mental, physical.  Don't know, I do everything, every time I also fight with the situation, but now I am not able to dare this time, don't know why now it seems that I stop, whatever will happen will be seen, now it seems that God should call me.  I never gave up, got cheated by my own people, even then I stood up, got drunk, gambled everything, then left it, saw my loved ones go away, still fought, suffered humiliation, still fought, but can't do it now.  Perhaps this is the end of my story and anyway the end is the beginning. I m  just 28 years old .. This time i can't ..dont know why.

Depression


And even after those storms, you are still beautiful, still kind, still brave, still confident and still perfect.

I am proud of you.

Motivation

Reasons I don't want to rant to a friend : 
They either end up feeling bad/sad or try telling stuff to make me feel better, sometimes writing huge paragraphs to cheer me up. Now don't get me wrong. I appreciate it very much but I still feel sorta bad for making them feel sad, or for making them want to put so much effort in trying to make me feel better. Like I know they're just kind human beings and all, but I just don't consider myself worthy of any time or effort whatsoever, so I can't accept or allow people to spend their time or effort on me 💀 if that makes any sense 🤲 I do appreciate them, but I also feel bad 😔 gawd these contradictions 😩😩😩

Almost everytime I've posted a story about me here I've gotten atleast one response that goes, "you're cute." This app has taught me that i might be ugly as shi.t but atleast people find my personality cute😭😂
(Yup that sounds exactly like something an ugly person would say ) 

I am feeling fucking so irritated rn bcz of one person that is my bestfriend her changed behaviour bcz she got a boyfriend and that guy is stuck in someone else feeling bcz of him we almost fight daily my friend is now finding me irritating even a small thing i do she finds it irritating and i am always trying to save the friendship but she is making it impossible i cannot like i cannot take it anymore .. she made me so vunerable rn i even fucking cried for like i cried i have never cried for anyone like this .. people say i  sweet and innocent that why they always take advantage of it . And i am feeling like this bcz we live together me and my “bestfriend” i am writing it in quotes bcz i dont think it would last anymore .. i literally see everything in front of my eyes and everynight goes out with him and comes by midnight but yesterday she stayed at home and was having dinner with me but also that time is she was countinouly on phone and was saying i am tired i dont wanna tall i was wtf and then she was listening to some sad songs i was like if u gonna go out go out and if u are staying at home why u are making me feel that thing i cam fucking go on and on but i cannot i am done but i am not able to move on bcz i am not able to make it i am not able to become rude please fucking please help me anyone 

Insecurity

Some desterbanse i uninstalled the app again and again and I am back feel very thoughtful.

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