Barishhhhhh.
Thand mee...
Aaj nhi rukne wali..
Gonna make myself a cup of tea...

Other

Dil ye mera tere dil se ja mila hai 
Rab se jisko manga tu wo sila hai
Taqdeer jabse tujhse mili hai 
Jaam e mohabbat zehar ashiqui hai

3am Thoughts

I feel lonely..

I have never been in relationship coz I never wanted to marry and also coz my family I avoided. Now my marriage is fixed i.e. after 3 months and I don't know what to talk to my fiance. I am not talkative person. He does makes efforts and texts me but Idk what to reply. Also I feel we lack a connection, how to make that?

Marriage

I really want to get into research , like really badly. But I am afraid I don't have the the discipline for it. Everyone else in the field seems to be so much more drive than me. I am lost in my bad habits. I masturbate or eat all day or scroll Instagram and seriously can't get out of this.  Even now that I received an opportunity, I seem to be really fucking up because of me getting lost in my phone and masturbation.

Frustration

I am totally broken right now. I am a 10th grader and I have done a lot of things which I shouldn't be doing at this age. I have known too much. I was raped by my cousin when I was in class 2(and no one knows about it yet). He has destroyed my childhood. I have had a very rough patch since a really young age. I caught my father having extra marital affair. It has become very hard for me too trust anyone. I have literally no true friends. I had one but I have lost connection with her 2 years back. Since the last 1.5 years my mental health has been worsening. I felt too lonely. No one was there to understand me. I started self harming a lot. I hated myself. I started to go to sites that I shouldn't. One day on such a site I met a guy,who is 6 years older than me. He understood me and tried to help me feel better by talking to me almost daily. He has helped me feel positive and has also supported me to be mentally happy  .  But slowly he started to ask for sexual favors such as demands of  private pics and hot talks. Unknown to whats happening, I agreed. He talks to me really nicely but the problem is he keeps asking for sexual pics in every 3-4 days. He asks to do video calls with him. It has been almost 10 days now, we have been talking. I have already sent him a lot of private pictures but shouldn't have. I do feel happy while talking to him as my loneliness disappears but I don't like to talk sexual with him. Today, I confronted him and told that I am not liking the sexual relation. He replied in a very understanding way, he told that we won't be talking sexually frequently but once in a month/ fortnight . Now seeing our age difference and everything , I am not able to understand what I should do. If I stop talking to him then I will again go back to the phase of my life that I would not want to. If I keep our connection then my mental health will be the only benefit, but is it right for me to keep such a kind of relation at this age  with someone like him? 

Mental Health

I think I’m fundamentally a cold, and an unfeeling person. 

Hallucination

hi guys, can someone help? i am 13 and for the past three years i have really wanted to cut my hair short. at the moment, my hairs at my shoulders, but i want to cut it short. (im not transgender btw) but if i asked my mom to let me cut my hair she would go so crazy and im not even allowed to like i can just tell im not allowed because she likes long hair

and she would think im transgender and is very religious idk if that contributes to it idk but can someone tell me how i can ask her?

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it

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