Back when im 12 or 13 whem im depressed, i do self harm and almost suicide. Idk how i can survive until now 17, i think im not fully recovered, i dont go to psychologist and my parent dont know abt it.
Now i do self harm again (bcs, idk, i feel suffocated with my life rn, my parent divorce not peacefully, its been 6 month my mom left me, she is difficult to contact and does not contact me, when she contact me she just asking about my siblings not about my condition, its really hurts. My siblings dont care about her, even my sister block her.) And many other stuff that make me depress, i want to stop cutting. I want to stop thinking about killong myself, i want normal life.
I think i need professional help, but idk how to tell my parent, and i dont want them to see scars all over my arm.
