At this point I really don't wanna exist.
I feel nothing but sorrow.
It's not that I'm going to do anything but yeahhh I am a mess.

We all are a mess. Everyone's makin an effort just not to be.

What think hurt the most

Bullying

The harder i try the worse i get.

Adulting

I so fckin hate you from the core of my heart, i have loved you and have wasted myself, this universe just know how to break me, not a single day it had made me feel loved. From every single person I've crossed hates me or dislikes me, why don't i just die,i have got no emotions left other than this zone where i stay spaced out, i had a dream and that too is taken away by these people and their presence, i am so terrified i am not gonna make it. I am so done, i am so done, i am so done i am so done i am so done from people like you. How much i hate myself for loving people like you, such a nightmare you're i wish you find nobody to rely on, i wish you suffer and know what i get through. I don't wish anything good for you, i don't wish that anybody thinks you're good, cause you're not. I hate you i hate you i hate you for making me feel worthless. For making me feel i can't be appreciated. For making me feel i am not special and not love. FK you were so toxic and i thought love changes people, just because of you I'll not ever love someone the way i could have, how shitty of you, i am not going to contact you from any method spiritually too you're dead to me. And what so fkin' hate you.

3am Thoughts

Hey there
So I'm a 15yr old girl who is currently in 10th. When I was in std 7th, a school counselor came to my class and said that she wanted to talk to me. That got me confused as to what had happened. Before that I was always very said. I used to be the most talkative and extroverted person but all that had gone away. Now I rarely ever talk to anyone and yeah. Once my sessions started with the school counselor, I was diagnosed with **Clinical Depression** I used to be very scared of my dad and the fights that happened between my parents. Then in the beginning of 8th std, I started going to a psychiatrist and a professional psychologist outside school while still continuing school counseling. During all this, I still somehow managed to do dance competitions and all. Then while I was in 8th, in October, me and my mom left our home and dad. I used to have a lot of suicidal thoughts and I also had attempted it. That was a warning sign that something had to be done. After that, we stay at my grandmother's place for 2 months after which we shifted to a place right next to my school on rent, obviously. That was in 2019 January. Since then, my mom has been the one giving me Panic and Anxiety attacks but now I don't have help. I don't go to a psychologist anymore and that's not an option for me anymore. My mom has caused me severe PTSD but it's like I have no way so getting help.
Also, I have a sister who is 9 years elder to me. When we left the house she was out of town for her studies and now she juggles between both my parents. 

Depression

There’s no one for me

Life

Hillsong worship anyone ? 

Music

It's raining here, having a cup of tea, listening to kailash kher, feeling lazy and disheartened. :)
What are you guys up to?

I realized today that we all get to busy with earning money that we have forgotten the real meaning of life which, relationships, family, and love. Today, I look around and I found myself alone. And it is not me, it is everyone. I think we should commit to ourself that we need to be kind and create families so that we live the true life 

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