At the age of 13, you learned the difference between giving up and taking a rest. You might have given it your all but not make it. Remember to disregard everything that comes after but.

Other

Its been soo long since we've last talked with each other...and now I'm in dilemma whether to text him or not:)

3am Thoughts

Is it possible that some guy do gestures out of their comfort zone just to have physical intimacy with you????
Or is it possible that guy changed his appearance as per your likings just for intimacy?

Delusion

I think my twin flame or soul mate, the "one meant for me" whatever you want to call it, is my friend, because no matter how much time we spend apart, my love for him grows all the time. I constantly miss him and we havent spoke in a few months now. He understands me without me even having to say anything. I have tried to forget about him but i stopped trying because it doesnt work. He is like family, or my other half. Im not sure... I never have expressed this idea out loud, for I hate to jump to conclusions that are so concrete.. but how would I know if he was? im a very spiritual person but Im not sure

Spirituality

Why is it difficult to sit with our emotions? How can we deal with it?

Mental Health

already want to skip 2022 

I came to know this guy (who's my friend rn)during the beginning of 2018 while we were in college. Since November 2018 my feelings for him are bit confusing. I feel so happy to talk to him and I love making him laugh for my silly jokes, I wish to know him better and all but whenever we aren't talking I seem to miss him a lot.  Now that college is over and we've become busy I feel distant and I don't want to feel distant. It's been almost a year since we met in person and these days I miss him a lot. What is this irresistible feeling called? Why is he always in my thoughts no matter how busy I am ? I have never been in a relationship or love or had a crush on anyone. I'm curious if he thinks the same about me but I'm afraid to ask because I can't figure out what I am actually feeling rn.. so what am I going through right now? 

Love

First let's talk about my living situation: I live in a trailer 

Brown mold on the ceiling 
The door leading to go outside can't even close 
Carpet floors expect in the kitchen with fake ass tile 
Literally everything in my house is dirty literally everything!!!
The sink in the kitchen doesn't work and it's stopped up with gross brown green water. One time I found fucking worms in the sink.
The sink in the bathrooms hardly have running water. On the topic of water I only get to shower like once or twice a month
Ants, flies, and gnats everywhere 
And that's not everything but I wont go into more detail.
Also the trailer is not sturdy at all

Pets: I have a cat and he stays on top of the fridge all the time because it's so gross. Also my drug addict father always threatens to kill him or throw him outside. P.s. my father has the went to jail but that was before I was born for domestic violence (hitting/ hurting my mom) 

I have dog not to mention a chihuahua that lives outside because my parents and grandmother didn't want to buy flea and tick medication for him or just didn't care or just dumb!!! Now he stays outside in a dog house with a leash tied to a tree and it's always hot (it's summer time and I live in Virginia) and he could have a heat stroke and die and it rains 
all the time so he could get sick. My dog has also never went to the vet. But I try my best to him healthy.

Moving: 
 My mom, sister, and I are trying to move away from my dad and grandmother but my mom has no job (they won't let her get a job) 
Also for me school is starting soon. I will be doing online class. (Zoom video calls) 


Family

My toxic trait thinking 
I can be her good friend !!!

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