As effort should be both sided in relation, should I also now stop being available all the time. Bcz other person is not adjusting his time at all. Only talk when gets time although regular. 

I told. Even he should know himself the changes he is bringing. 
Today even he got rude with me when I tried talking during work

Maybe try telling him wht u feel just onces if he really cares you'll notice the difference surely..

Boyfriend

I feel really anxious, iam so much drained mentally, iam not able to work. Iam getting stressed for the slightest of the things.i tend to be angry at people iam close to because of what iam going through. Iam not able to express what iam going through

Anxiety

My cousin caught me throwing up. 
I promised her not to do it again but I haven't been able to keep it, I have been forced to eat and I felt terrible, I needed to do it.
I'm very sad for her, she thinks it's her fault and it's not. I love her very much, I don't want her to feel bad for me

I quit my corporate job a few months ago to start a slow life and live in suburbs. I so wanted to end my city life and start a new slow life asap because living in the city with my corporate job was stressful. I worked 12-14 hours a day, every day. Various shift timings screwed my body clock and my social life. I decided to start my own business with the little savings I had without thinking too much about the details. Now, when I started to talk to a CA, GST, company registration, trademark, website design etc. I realised that there are many costs involved that I overlooked earlier. I know a business takes time to pick up and with the savings I have, I wont be able to survive for many months as I had assumed. I’m searching for work from home jobs now so I can make money until my business picks up. I am unable to find work from home jobs with a decent pay that’ll cover my rent and other household expenses and am stressed that my dream of starting my own business is going to remain a dream. If I don’t get a work from home job, I may have to start going to offices to work and then I will not have time for my own business.

Money Problems

Tomorrow I’m travelling to a touristy destination for work. I have my accommodation in a big 5star hotel. And it’s for the first time I will stay in a 5star alone. But why I’m feeling lonely? Even though I’m a solo traveller and travelled to many places for leisure but idk why I’m feeling low for tomorrow! 

How am i feeling... To be honest i'm feeling numb, hurt, broken, tired and much more than that HUNGRYYYYYYYYY😂😌

Mood Disorder

Idk why I feel no girl would ever like me. 
I have many female friends but whenever I get feeling for any girl, she immediately changes & loose interest in me. 
Though I am very respectful towards everybody.idk why this happens.


One Sided Love

healing from breakup is the worst shit ever. especially if it was one where everything was fine until things completely went out of your control. it's been 4 months since she broke up with me and i still have palpitations thinking about what she said.  she herself was healing from breakup when we first started talking 6 months back. i didnt think i was a rebound because i thought she had moved on. and we had great conversations, a great connection, we talked everyday and everything seemed fine. 2 months back i went to visit her for just the second time in her college. I wanted to surprise her. I reached in the evening and called my friend, Akash to call her so she wouldnt know im here. We rendezvoused to that place only to find out that she was drunk and came with a date who she made out with in front of me, before i could say hi. Akash too was stunned to see this. I couldn't believe what i was seeing. I was shook. Akash confronted her, asked who the other guy was, she said just a guy she met at the bar. she said she wanted to have fun and so she did. akash asked her about me, she simply said "But he isn't here, he wouldn't know". I wasn't too far, so i heard what she said. I  was furious to hear that. I walked up to her, and said "I know now". She didnt know how to react. she apologised but said that she would still have done it, since it meant nothing to her, and that it in no way mant she din love me. I can understand her perspective but never be okay with it, i couldnt be with someone who would choose anyone over me, so i broke up. but i cant seem to get over it. it feels like she didnt do anything wrong at the same time everything wrong. healing from this breakup is the worst - How do i deal with this. I want her back, but not anymore? what's this soul tearing dilemma?

Breakup

Day 12 of writing journal entries!

I don’t think I’ve ever not been excited for the weekend… the reason I’m not is because it’s a 3 day weekend and I won’t have anything to do without schoolwork to do in the morning. I really need a hobby… any suggestions?

Besides my everlasting boredom today wasn’t a bad day! I just got halfway through my school year with a perfect 4.0 gpa! Doing great.

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