She was supposed to get married this november. Don't know if she is married or not. However, I have been thinking about her a lot past few days. 

She wanted to be friends but I couldn’t 

Once someone is your ex, you should be done with each other. No 'staying friends' bullshit and all. 

I have contact with one of my exes. The others just don't align with me after breakup. It varies per person, I suppose.

Are you friends with your ex?

Breakup

I MISS MY EX :(

Why do people call their ex snake ?

3am Thoughts

How to overcome a guy you never dated?

One Sided Love

I really want to text him but idk what should I do 

Confusion

There's this guy in my university , I really used to feel we could be good friends. I mean he was a lot like me , more like a male version of me . Even though he barely used to speak with girls back then , he finally started texting me consistently . Though we both are ambiverts , we are kinda shy and hesitate to speak with each other in person. Also ,a lot of my friends really don't like seeing us as friends. In the very initial days when they once spotted us, they were super jealous and started creating situations so that we both couldn't speak to each other. And We  barely exchanged convos in person then. Now one year down the line we still are the same . I feel miserable , knowing that I have this one person right infront of me who could be one of my best friends and he kinda feels the same.Not that we don't put in effort . Both of us do but it never works out.ngl he puts in a lot of effort than I ever did. Ig we both have this constant fear of judgement. We don't really speak when we are in a group of people .  Our convos are sporadic . We speak one day we don't the other.
Any suggestions on  how to overcome this? 
And how to even approach a guy in person and still not intimidate him? 
Is it better to have a convo when he's alone.
Ik this sounds super lame but please help me  out.


Life

I've been in a relationship for 2 years. It all started with a blind date (we had a friend in common). The first year of relationship was very healthy for me but one day, when we were on a date I had his phone with me for taking pictures and then suddenly a message pops with a sexualized text in it. When I went home I grabbed my phone and called the girl and I found out they've been dating since two months. After several meets with him I gathered all the information regarding his social media and I went through it and what I found out was that he was cheating with me with 4 girls. I told him everything and we broke up but we came back together after few months (idk why?). But again he cheated on me with the same level of technique and then I stopped talking. Somehow he came to know the truth and tried to contact me but till then I shifted to another city. He used to call on my parents mobile phone (disguised himself as a classmate), he mentally tortured me for a year and when we met again he was like AMONG ALL THE GIRLS I WAS DATING ALONG WITH YOU, YOU WERE THE MOST SPECIAL AND LOVED ONE. IT WAS YOUR FAULT THAT YOU LEFT ME AND I WON'T FORGIVE YOU. It's been 3 years for all that thing but even today he calls me, blames me for his depression, tells his friends that I cheated on him, etc. 
The relationship was toxic, I got out of it, was it my fault? NO. 
What should I do to stop him now? 

Relationships

Continuation to the story.. so yesterday i just typed all msgs how i felt.. and he said i lobe you.. i said stop these bcz no one can say i love you when r hiding something.. i asked him a straight question that why did u first add me as a friend? I accepted and why you blocked? This was my straight question..he is saying that i am negetive.. bcz of my words he blocked me on facebook. And he is saying his single agenda is bcz of my words.. in relationships we have words, fightings,caring, time and love... but he is pointing me when i am asking the straight question and now he is in usa, he is doing job training by a institute and he is saying me do whatever u think bcz i dont care and u have changed to negetive nature and my single agenda is bcz of your words.. should i leave him completely? What i think about him is when i have a doubt on him.. he needs to clear right? Instead of saying these words ! What do u you guys think? And i want to know this guy thinking mindset

Cheating

I'm in love with ___and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I could try to move on, but that would only make me fall in love with two people at the same time. I really don't understand the point of falling in love, it just hurts, amazing when it lasts, just like hell when it doesn't. Honestly, I'm tired of this, always waiting longer than I will receive. 
I don’t know who hurts each other more, he can’t help me and I can’t help him. I make everything worse with us. I hate fighting with him, but it’s a bad habit. My anxiety is killing me to even look at him. I need help, serious help. I just don’t reach out to get it. I’m a bad person, I wish that he could love me, or that I could get rid of these feelings. I’ve prayed and prayed but they just won’t go away, I don’t care if I regret it in the end, it’s either I get rid of these feelings or they end up to be the death of me.
I forgot what hating myself felt like, because I loved him so much to the point of me forgetting my self hate. But It’s always here, and I’m stupid enough to let it ruin my relationship with him. I hid the cuts with my bracelets. When I saw him, I took off the bracelets and just pulled up my sleeves. He’s gonna be the death of me one day, and I know, no matter how hard I try to avoid it, he will still hurt me the same way again.
He will never love me the way I love him, I know that. He’d fall in love with __ quicker than he’d become friends with me. But that’s good for him, at least she can help him and he can help her. They’re perfect for each other.
I hate feeling this way, will it ever go away? It’s just constantly hurting, I can’t do anything about it. I hate him, I hate her, I hate me the most. I hate everything, except for Selena. I could never hate her or leave her. But I can hate him and leave him. No matter how much it would hurt me to do so, it would be better for him.
I know he’ll never read this, and I'm glad about that. But if you ever do, I’m sorry ___. I just hate myself too much to keep hurting myself to love you. I don’t even know half the things I say anymore, my head hurts and so does my heart.
 
This is an old vent I found just a while ago. I'm over him now, and it's nice to reminince(that's not how you spell it.)
Each paragraph is a few weeks or days apart.

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