Anyone wanna talk about how childhood traumas fuck up teenage n adult life significantly?
Wanna discuss here or Can DM me
IT REALLY DOES!!!
All my life, I have been carrying the past with me and it feels daunting to let it go. I let my traumas make decisions in every situation I have been in and see it destroy the life I could have without it. I feel helpless about not being able to let it go. I remind myself my past does not reflect my present, but it still seems complicated to overcome it. I also realized the past does not reflect the present, but it sure affects the future you dream of living.
I have started to not blame myself for the things that happened with me. I mean, I only did things I felt right at the moment, decisions I thought would help me be in a better state. Life is hard when you isolate yourself from others just because you feel you done deserve much and not worth living. Need to understand this is how it is always going to be, what makes it different is your approach to the situation. Trying to have a better approach towards life.
How are you doing now?
-Thanks for sharing your experience and thoughts
I don’t know man how do I answer that question. One minute I feel good, excited to be alive. Next minute it feels everything is falling apart, trying to pick up the pieces as someone walks over it. You find it difficult to change the situation you live in when you have lived your life in depression, anxiety for more than a decade. I just pray that I don’t lose this fight with myself.
Sorry if it triggered you in any way, I didn’t mean to.
How are things your end?
No this doesn’t trigger me at all…
Anyway, the situation you have explained is it a feeling of ‘Void’ in your life or something else?
Have tried reading about it?
On my end things are going well actually
It is a feeling of not being strong enough to move on from the situation and live in the moment. feeling helpless, annoyed, and mix of all emotions. Spending every minute thinking about the things that happened and How I could have done better or done something to change the outcome. Sometimes I am so annoyed of myself like I feel I just whine about it and afraid to take bold steps to improve my situation. It is so comforting to stay this way yet disheartening to see myself drown deep into the darkness no at around.
I have read about it also went to a therapist, had to stop going because of monetary issues.