Friends

Why everyone seems fake ?

3am Thoughts

Pretending to be technical 
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Society

Love yourself the most .the world is fake

Caregiver

Isn't it really irritating when you support and understand your friend's feelings but when it's your time, they just dismiss you and label you as a bad guy? This is the reason why I feel better having no friends. 

I feel like my friends are starting to dislike me. I have no idea what I did. They’re getting more agitated with me and just overall ignoring me. I just joined a discord call with them and they left as soon as I started talking. I just wanted to talk with someone :(

People's hypocrisy surprises me. 
My "friends" know that I am going trought a very hard time. I completly isolated myself and don't have contact to anyone since a few days but no one sent me a message, no one called me, no one cares about me. 
If one of my friend would be in my situation, I would call them or send them messages sometime to know how they are or if they're needing help because I would be truly worried about them.

So basically today i played a sad ticktock sound that said: ¨im sorry for making it hard to get to know me and im sorry for questioning your loyalty constantly im sorry that i do self destructive things that are scary to you and make you worry about me all the time im sorry about the little things that set me off and im sorry for overacting to seemingly insignificant things im sorry if i seem cold and distant sometimes im sorry for relying on you im sorry for talking about myself to much and im sorry for being another thing that you have to worry about im sorry for a lot of things but mostly im sorry for existing because you wouldn't have to go through any of this.¨ 

So basically i kept playing this around my friends to see if they were my true friends and so i asked one group of my friends what was in common with every single time i played the sound and it took them awhile to say that we giggled every time and i explained that i did that to show them that no matter how sad or depressed i get i will always have my true best friends there to cheer me up and there to rely on. 

Then, i tried this on another group of ¨my friends¨ and i asked them and then one of the girls actually said well i dont care why your doing this i have other things to do and so i explained why i was doing it and how it was a test and that she had failed. So im saying that friends can be fake and sneaky and have hearts as cold as stone and they will be in disguise and fool you into giving you your trust until you slowly become innocent and weak to them and then they will prey on you till your done for and theres  no hope so do this and be careful with your friends.

Depression

I'm in my 1st year of college, as of now I oy have 2friends, but the problem is that they nagg a lot. Even a slightest tiny problem they'll discuss a ton about it. But my personality is totally different from them. Me on the other side is very cool and chill and don't mind small problems. The thing is that I don't want my personality to adapt according to their because we stay together.They are good by nature but this part is annoying. 


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