Any Cloud or DevOps engineers here??

Looking for a job change. Need some suggestion.

Thanks in Advance!!

Career

Need a suggestion I’m really confused & stressed about this shit…is there anyone who can help

Anxiety

Why do I feel like it doesn’t exist no one actually decent? Like, if minimal principles... if education, if care for the other... Why can’t I identify myself in no one? Am I the problem? 
Just some thoughts 

Friends

Hello

Exams are in 5 days and idk anything not that i don't study but my shitty school gives Tons of homework and projects to do before exams ifkrr so irritating . Everyone is so stressed out i hope i get good marks .... 

Stress

Don’t even feel like crying rn just wanna die
I wish I didn’t have siblings or parents so I could die without hurting anyone else

3am Thoughts

Ahh..😞
This crazy life really sucks. Don't know what comes into our life and when it comes .
Don't take it lite if we take it lite then it will make us suffer.

Sometimes small things impact a lot in our life. As a result w'll go through regret s. Hardest thing is regret.
Don't do things we regret later.

Think before you act,It can be any kind of situation. Even general talk, Even a chat becomes problem, Even a word on others etc.
Don't expect two people perspectives as same. It will never be same.
sharing what I have in mind😒


Mindfulness

Vent time...
Hiieee y'all 
Aaj ka din was bahot jyada hi wahiyat tha yk like idk kya tha but jo bhi tha na I just don't wanna ever experience that AGAIN... literally like it was yk a sort of roller coaster of different emotions, I felt as if ek dost nhi h mera and idk why I had this feeling ki sab bas mere se kaam ke liye hi dosti krte h and nobody genuinely wants to be my friend. And when I say this ki I don't have any friends then they show as if they care alot bout me, why double standards man. Like seriously not even a single person has done something for me obviously other than family, it's not like ki main chahti hu ab wo care kare but ab koi bolta bhi h na ki wo care krte h n blah blah blah... main believe hi nhi kr paati unpe itne trust issues hogye h na kya hi btau.....
At one point of time in my life I wanted someone ki jisko main bhot saari baate batau but tb koi nhi tha and ab koi puchta h toh mujhe smjh nhi aata ki kya btau.... itna jyada hi independent nhi banna tha mujhe... kahi bhi Bahar jana hota h akele chali jati hu, then so called friend bolte h you would have asked us ham chalte saath, but ab habit hogyi h yarrr

If anyone's reading abhi tak, So I wanted to ask like mera ye behavior okay h ya need to change accordingly??

Please positive response dena yarr(already had a hectic day) , otherwise ignore maar do




Should I text him? 
We talked about about 7 months ago 
we used to talk a lott over chat and over calls like for hours andd then something happened and he was kinda ignoring me 
I started to maintain distance
And from that I stopped texting first and then he never texted
He has this instagram page so he texted me just to promote his page 
Now he doesn't do that too
I'm confused because I do badly wanna talk to him he was like my bestfriend

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