Anxiety attacks hit you the hardest when nothing is going right for you. My parents are disappointed in me, everyone at home keeps fighting; the people around me are disappointed in me, I may have friends but I feel lonelier than ever; Im disappointed in myself, I’m screwing up my exams. I’ve lost my appetite to a point where I throw up all the time. I’ve cried so much that my eyes sting and my body has dehydrated but something still itches me so much that im forcing myself to express it. Nothing makes me happy. It’s so stupid that my life affects me like this. It’s so stupid that I can’t bring myself back up. It’s so stupid that I’ve become like this and I can’t understand why. I’m mentally and physically exhausted. I can’t focus on what’s important, I can’t concentrate enough. I can’t escape the viscious cycle and I don’t know what to do.
It’s not stupid. It’s okay. Take your time, breathe and slowly get back up. Everything will get better.
You know I’ve experienced the exact same thing. I feel like you’re strong enough to go through this. If you can be bold enough to express it you can be brave enough to act on it too. I’m sure you’ll be okay soon. Trust yourself