Another hard day. Just done with everything and don't want to live anymore. May be the last of my life. May god bless us all with wealth and happiness.

Dont be so hard on yourself. Pain is inevitable. All has problems. These problems actually makes us more stronger. Happiness comes from solving these problems.
Now, ask yourself whats the actually reason for your sadness or pain. Your subconcious mind will surely know the answer. And work towards that. Do things for yourself. That makes you really happy. That you are taking care of yourself. Life always has highs and lows. 
Dont worry. You can solve your problems,  ask if you need any help

Depression

Hai i am a Telugu boy is there any Telugu one in this app🥺

Breakup

My plan for this kockdown is being productive. Working on my mental and physical health. My communication skills etc

Mental Health

Forgetting about checking on here, means your mental health is doing great. Lol. Cheers to everyone who found their way. 

3am Thoughts

Here's the thing... I don't know if I'm handling it well, but it always brings me to tears 😓😓

It's been a while since I fell in love. I met my girlfriend online. We hit it off really well. She's sweeeeeet. A month later, I took a flight to go see her. Staying with her for the few days was so easy, right from the moment I arrived. It was like we'd known each other forever. Like, we'd even met before! It was amazing. 

So I noticed she'd had surgery. Being a Medic, I asked her about the surgery. She was open enough to share her medical documents with me. When I reviewed them I noticed the surgery involved removal of both her ovaries (Bilateral Oophrectomy). Maybe this was justified because the medical diagnosis was serious- a form of tumor called a Teratoma. I asked her if she knew what was done, and she told me she didn't know, and was only told that she had an ovarian cyst removed. It brings me to tears, because she was lied to. But as for now, I've not told her the truth yet.  I will, but I can't tell her such news before I get her investigated thoroughly. I'm arranging for her to travel to my country so that she can get excellent scans done, so that I'm sure of what I'll tell her. Additionally, such major news, in case it's true she's had oophrectomy done, can't be discussed on phone. I'll need to discuss this with her in person. 

I'm so scared. I'm afraid. I love her. And I'm quite depressed, but I'm not giving up on my Pretty Little girl. If the news comes out that she's indeed had her ovaries both removed, then I hope she'll be able to handle the tragic news. 

I hope sharing here Will make me feel better. 

Why is junk food so desirably attractive? 😞

Eating Disorder

I am insanely and very desperately in love with my boyfriend and the mere thought of loosing him or not getting to build my life with him is very scary but I've seen couples fall apart in long distance or with time and i just can't see us go through that but neither can i break up with him cuz I would literally die if that happens..I'm stuck..i know we will eventually break up but this feeling right now is to die for.. never knew you could feel so much and love one person this much..he's all that matters it's just the best feeling ever..

Love

How to overcome the fear of social anxiety? How to overcome the fear being not liking me? This anxieties have been killing me inside everyday, sometimes i wanna talk with people and have fun in crowned places but the fear of people keeps lingering!! And being around pretty peoples is even more mess up!! I never took off my mask whenever I go out or colleges because i think people might not like me!! And since i have never been sociable with others it even make more difficult to breathe with them!! The pressures of studies and being a A+ students is hard after my lockdown my grades got down so much that i lost the student i used to be :)) sad endings always for me . Not able to speak my mind and not able to share , holding the tears  in is hard but it's normal now !! Just a thought i wanted to always share i wish i could say it loud in reality too but well i guess i am more comfortable in virtual. Thanks for reading upto here and listening my nonsense haha.

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