another day passes by
doing nothing as the day goes by
going away all alone and why
thinking of a better day
struggling to stop a cry
another day passes by

Feeling same! 
It just feels like life is passing me by while I watch others work for there life. I simply do nothing for it!

3am Thoughts

My career is f*cked up and am confused as to what to do

ADHD

Everyone needs a dr jugs in their life (:)

Caregiver

Hwo to win friends tip 101:- i think my notification section stopped working....can u send me a connection request?

I m tired of living an unstable, purposeless life. Whatever I desired it never happened, no matter what I try I keep failing. Now I have lost all the courage to set any future goal. Right now I don’t even know what I want to do...unable to keep even simple promises to myself. Am I so wrong as person that I don’t even have single person to share my pain, hug me, comfort me. Was it all my mistake that I m struggling like this. I hate myself for all the bad decisions I took, for hurting unintentionally so many people with my negative presence. Pls God give me some light so that I feel worthy of living 

Depression

What are obsessive behaviors that comply with OCD?

Sometimes I am really annoyed with the thinking of men in my house ....like they have a audacity to judge everything of any women.... I don't know if I have to pity them or what like there are many things to worry about and still you are here only judging the differences between men and women .......and for their kind information girls can talk about many things rather than just discussing about beauty creams.....grow the fuck up.....and if you want to do something do something about the other problems.

It hurts when someone makes fake promises



“The One”

April 26, 2021
2555 days and counting, I love or loved an interesting person I met in high school. Let’s just call her Autumn. She was the first person that gave me butterflies in my stomach (I know it’s a bit cliché lol). Even though chasing someone who was out of my league was stupid but at that time, I was blinded by love. I thought I found “The One”. We didn’t have a labelled relationship but we had something. We would always text each other till both of us couldn’t open our eyes anymore almost every night. I kept wondering if she felt the same way as I did. We didn’t exactly have lot of memories but somehow I still manage to cling onto those short little memories that she might not even remember now. She once told me that she was not ready for a relationship until she graduated from high school. So, I waited… and waited, until it was too late. I kept all those feelings about her to myself. I didn’t want to ruin what we were having because of my selfishness. I respected her opinion. But then something happened. We never talked since then. 

I still can’t get over her despite avoiding her and I don’t even know why. Why can’t I find the things she saw to cut herself from me? Sometimes I thought I met my Summer, but as time passes by, Autumn keeps coming back into my mind. Every person that I encounter will always be sub par when compared to Autumn. I know that’s incredibly wrong and a very toxic way of thinking but I can’t help it. Why did I believe that Autumn was the one? For no particular reason. I just set it in my mind and that was it. Or was it because I built an imaginary relationship with Autumn that didn’t exist. I only retained the good moments in my head. That’s why I was so heartbroken with what happened (long story short, right person wrong time). Jokes on me, I was a true romantic, the type of person that believed in the concept of true love, the one that will change everything. After all of that, the idea of “The One” is no longer realistic to me. I know we are not meant to be. 

Years passed by in the blink of an eye, I’m glad to hear her doing well in life. She’s now seeing someone else. Even though that “someone” is not me but I am truly happy to see her happy.

Only time will heal me. Time always heals. I just hope I can finally move on. 


May 6, 2023 
It’s been many years. I lost count. I feel like I’ve moved on but there’s still a string that’s not letting me go. But, it is time to close off this chapter and start a new one in my life. I will be okay… eventually. I hope. :-)


* Sorry for this essay but I really needed to get this out of my mind… and heart.

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