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daytripper
@daytripper

Another day, another disappointment.
Since I have not confronted my gf about her cheating on me, she still does not have any idea about it. She invited me over her house today. I can’t say that I wasn’t a bit hopeful and happy. But it was the regular thing, she barely talked to me. And once the meal was done, she asked me to leave because her mood was not good and she did not want to talk. I returned home with a heavy heart. I actually know what I am doing to myself is a crime, that I am the one causing more damage to my heart. That i am hoping for something impossible.

It is not like that I am not trying to settle up in my mind. I am telling myself everyday that I deserve better. I can do better. But this pandemic is already hurting and I do not have anything to do at home. I am trying so hard not to think about her. But thoughts come pouring in. I am such an idiot that even after knowing everything, somehow I am still looking for some love. Is there any hope for me?

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@lamoriya0095

i was in the same situation and it all started from this point and after every thing she did i thought that ok from now on everything will be right between us and i finally broke up with her after wasting my four fucking years. just beware you love her thats why your mind will make excuses to stay with her or she might do this job(like i still cant believe one can cry lying) try to think rationally whether she also loves you or not and if yes whats her contribution in your relationship. so much of drama waiting for you and your love will make you a puppet of this. just think bro and save your time,heart and in rarest possibility mind too.

daytripper
@daytripper

I am trying to secure a separate job first. We work in the same place too. The reason I am not confronting her is because I do not want to see her face everyday after I break up with her. And you are right, she will make me a puppet and will demonize me to everyone.

Just a few hours ago, I found that she kept me offline in messenger. When I called her, I found hit in another call. She instantly lied that it was her aunt. Right now, she is claiming that her aunt is talking to her. But I find it really hard to believe. I know that it is her student. My heart is bleeding and I can’t stop it. You know she and I are together for 5 years and we are apparently ‘‘best friends’’ too. I really do not know how I am going to recover from this.

daytripper
@daytripper

And yes, she is cheating on me with her student.

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@lamoriya0095

about this job changing and then not talking or seeing her again…try to stick to it or else it would also prove just another excuse that your mind is making to be with her because you love her. i have already told you it happens. shit happens(about that student thing) i cant even tell you mine. its not your fault.