And you wanna scream don't call me love, don't call me baby
Look at this godforesaken fool that you made me


3am Thoughts

I’m so fucking tired of being treated like nothing, I’ve been hurting for the last 5 years and I haven’t told anyone I’ve been hit, lied to, kicked out, cheated on while I was pregnant and I just can’t take it anymore I feel so lonely and lost and I hate my life well everything except for my son. Please if you have any advice on how to deal with the fact that someone smashed your heart into a million pieces and scattered them across the Atlantic Ocean

Depression

How am I feeling today? 

I feel like I'm drowning. These couple of days I've been thinking a lot about him. I still miss him. I still love him. The memories comes back to me slowly. I'm getting behind a lot in school well I have an excuse for that. I'm studying for my driving license which I hope I don't fail... Again. Bro I just wanna know what happiness is. What the fuck! I can't. Being happy is impossible. I know something that would make me happy, pass my driving test. I just want to achieve something. 

Anyways. I'm still happy that I haven't given up on myself. I just need to keep going!!



Life

i do good for people everytime..
like i don't like thinking bad about anyone
but eveytime..things happen even if it was not my fault i am blamed always..
like this happens in my own family too..
i am blamed for eveything
but i usually think if i know i am right and my god knows i am right then why to prove people..but nowadays its getting too much and affects me too much 

hey all.. i dont know how this works. its my first time here. i am feeling suicidal currently. i have committed mistakes in my life for which i am very shameful and let my family down. i trusted people and they betrayed me. my life is falling apart every passing minute. i dont find any way out but to kill myself. my family doesnt look at me the same way. i cant face either me or anyone else. if i didnt belong to a muslim family or any other non-orthodox family then what i did would be taken very casually but in my family its taken the other way. i have been labelled words by my own mother and elder brother and sister. i have lost all the confidence in myself. they told me if they were to be in my shoes they would have spat at my situation. 
i really wish to die and kill myself. i hope i connect to people with the same feeling. thankyou!

Suicidal Ideation

I love him , i loved him  and i will always love him...i like him so much but he never thought about me in that way i always liked my friend, i was a fool to think that he likes me too just because he moved my hair back from my face, crack jokes with me , helped me at my lowest time doesn't have to mean anything right? But i truly loved him and will always love him

Love

Every month my family call me for money and then i send them some money. From some days due to some reason i do not have money and unable to send them. Now every one is talking to me very rudely.
I can not express how bad i am feeling.

I think if i stop earning then i will be of no use to them.
I am feeling very lonely and broken.
Pls suggest what to do, as i am unable to focus on anything.


Anxiety

I have pcod since 2 years now. I have not been able to fight it, it just keeps getting worse. I haven't got my period since 6months. My skin is absolutely shit, I'm obese. I have too much body hair. I have no confidence, I'm insecure all the time. It's very difficult to live with myself,I hate it. Lately I've been thinking of getting hysterectomy. But I'm just 20. Idc about fertility, I'm just worried if it'll make my health worse. My parents aren't going to allow me to get it, but I really want to, I'm so tired of this. Idk what to do, I'm so alone I can't even talk about it with anyone. My mental health is also worsening, I'm not able to do anything about that either. I feel like giving up. 

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