And you know what ....day by day my mental state is going bad ....

U r just 15+ and your mental state is not well. I Was just thinking when you turn 20+ then u just want to die 

No no ....Jo log marte hai wo log actually haar jate hain... According to me .... 

3am Thoughts

Another day ends with the thought of wanting to f***ing die.

Other

I am loosing confidence over everything, Things and ppl have started to scare me which makes it difficult to trust anyone and I don't know if that is normal. 

Mental Health

Willy wonka

थोड़ा तो इंतजार होता ही है कुछ पलों का... और फिर इंतजार होता है उनकी यादें खत्म होने का..💙

Affirmations

sab jaante hue bhi ye believe kyu rhta hai ki kya sab acha hoga kabhi

Confusion

I am a 10th grader and I just hate myself. I hate me for being the way I am now. Please don't show sympathy or anything like that cause its actually not gonna affect me at all. I agree I have gone through a lot of things at a very early age but in spite of my dark past I should have been true to my values and etiquette. No one knows the true me, everyone thinks that I am just a introverted nerd thats it. Its only me who knows me. I haven't studied properly since almost 1.5 years. My final exams are on its way and I have just given up right now. So many people have high expectations from me but I doubt on even passing my class. I have been in depression (not sure if thats the right word to use). I used to self harm a lot(not related to studies or love).Even now I do it. I actually planned of suiciding a lot times but my family's thoughts keeps preventing me. I started to faint frequently. Doctor advised me to go to a psychotherapist. I didn't utter a word in front of anyone and they declared that I was perfectly fine. You might think its just study pressure or something like that but actually its not. I behave very rudely to my parents for actually no reason at all. I did have a true friend in my life but its been 1.5 years since we lost connection. Yes I do feel lonely a lot but I am not greedy for any friendship.I really miss the old me a lot. I really feel like right now I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve happiness or love. I know people might say that no you do deserve but its just me who knows me the best. I am 100% sure the day someone knows the true me they are also going to just hate me. I don't know whats going to happen in the future. I feel so drained. Sometimes I just feel to runaway from everything forever. 

I am really sorry if your mood has worsened after reading this. Wish you good days ahead. 

Education

Main kuch din phale anonymouly post na kar ke regular way me post karne lagi the but actually some people are start stalking me so i things posting things as an anonymouly is good idea 

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