And it seems like yesterday, it was just a dream
But those days are gone, they're just memories

Kabita 💫

Memories

I held onto you even if it broke me from inside. Even it was the most painful thing I held on. But u broke me into pieces. Tore me apart like it was a joke. Didn't even apologize after that. What kind of human are you? I felt safe around you. i used to see love in your eyes. I felt at peace and comfort. How did it get so toxic? I still don't understand what happened? What changed you so much? Now all i feel around you is disgust. I hate you. Now your just another stranger. I just hate you. I never have hated and loathed a person more than you. I had to look and hear you every single day and move on without an apology. Do u even know how fucking hard it was? But I did it. I moved on. My scores went up. I am happier. I am at more peace. I need not even destroy your name u have done that to yourself. Mark my words your pride will destroy you one day and i want to watch that happen. You didn't deserve any of the love i poured into you. Just fuck off. Go to hell. Go to fucking hell and you will suffer for all your lies and deceit. Your toxicity. All the mental abuse that you did.You will. Just wait for it.

Lonely

The world is not what it seem to you , the world looks to you as it wants to show you " 



3am Thoughts

All of human unhappiness come from a single thing-
Not knowing how to remain at rest in a room.

     -Blaise Pascal.

Life

Bina chuuye bhi pyar karna.... Wo h mohobaat! 

Hello my name is ------ I am from -------, I don’t know when I was born, I somehow started “EXISTING”. People ask me if I fear death and honestly I was never able to cope with the reality of dying, that means I don’t think people die, rather they achieve the next level in their succumbed adventure of living, their subconciusness starts a new journey- journey beyond our (we who haven’t achieved the level yet) understanding, I always find myself in these weird situations where I have to pretend to be someone else, someone I have never heard of, besides these thoughts I am a very simple guy, I always wake up late in the morning and mostly miss my breakfast, then I go to my classes, it’s not like I am a lonely person, I have friends here they might also enjoy my company, except sometimes when I am “not me”, they don’t like me when I am something else they say I act different or weird, and it’s not their fault I have been getting these compliments for a long time now, it doesn’t bothers me I know I am weird and I don’t actually have a problem with that, although the real problem for me is as I have said I lack the living sometimes, it’s more like a troubleshoot, I lack times randomly.  I have talked about this to my friends and they suggest me to ask help from god. But I really don’t think there is someone like god up there, I think people created god for peace, I don’t know it’s what I believe in don’t worry I am not depressed or mentally not okay I work fine except for sometimes and those times are perplexing, I hope you understand what I am trying to say, now you might be wondering why did I wrote it here, well I wrote this for you YESS YOU. See I like how a human brain works, like take you as an example you are thinking right now who am I? your brain knows exactly that you don’t know me but still it’s trying to find something that can solve the mystery of my existence, memories flashing in front of your eyes for split of seconds, your brain is trying to connect the dots as much as it can. This way has always fascinated me, after all  that is how we know that we exist right? Well, I have wasted enough of your time and if you really came this far then I hope you best of luck. And stay safe at these complexing times, you are rare and important. 

Regards,
An 18 years old, 

My long distance boyfriend shows me to his friends whenever his out somewhere with his friends... I feel a bit awkward but also good.

Boyfriend

I am a person who's not sure what I want. When it comes to job I cant stay in a place and work. Like infront of pc or laptop working like robots for 8 hours. You will have break time and have to back within that given time. After 5 back to home, eat, rest, sleep then back to work the next day. I wonder most of the time why we human living a robotic life but at the same time I know we have commitments and we have to earn for living. But at the same time I wanna live a life where I can be my own boss. But I enjoy working as an interior architect, at the same time could not handle those 4-5 projects stress. And after trying and trying for vacancies I managed to get customer service job in which I have to travel for 45 mins to work by bike. Its risky to travel by bike but i enjoy working at my new office in which I will be infront of my pc for 8 hours. But my gf is working hard to get me a permanent job at a place since the place Im working right now is under contract term. Now Im confused which one should I go after as the permanent place increments and benefits are better than the place Im working right now. What should I do? Anyone like me? Dont know what they actually want?

Work

*give this a read, I swear it's not a waste of time
We're killing the earth and that's really fun
No one belives us because we're young
Our forests are turning to ash in a second
Ask California they'd tell you about it
They'll tell how they have lost their homes
For the last time, this is not a joke
Our factories are working-emitting toxins
Ozone is crumbling and we won't stop putting chemicals in what we're trying to breathe
Our future is stolen and we are the thieves
Sea levels are rising and ice bergs are melting
The coral reefs are dying and no one is helping

Do you realise that they keep the ocean alive?
Dear 2045, I don't think we are gonna survive
If you end up hearing this story,
I just want to say, I'm sorry.

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