And I was runnin' far away
Would I run off the world someday?
Nobody knows
Nobody knows, and
I was dancing in the rain
I felt alive, and I can't complain....
                                                -----Runaway (Aurora)


yeh the song  is so meaningful.....like its calling for us 

Not gonna lie, the lyrics always feel like a stab wound I'd happily welcome, because the song is one of my favourites nowadays. Especially "take me home, take me home where I belong.... Cause I can't take it anymore". ❣️❣️

Hope

wok up and I don't know why I get to feel scared & bad thoughts on everthing 

Life

I feel so uncomfortable

LGBTQ

Anyone wants to talk? I can't sleep at all.

3am Thoughts

Is anyone interested  in Geopolitics and would love discussions  related to it?

Current Affairs

Wonder if a guy friend miss me or he's just csll me to be nice or to try grt dex

Tired and lonely 
I met a girl online who was relative of my colleague… we started talking on instagram and after 6 months we met face to face. We started as friends but eventually we had feelings for each other. Her parents knew about me and my parents also knew at that time. We were meeting after every 15-20 days. She told her parents that I am asking for marriage with her. Her parents taken initiative and asked me to send them my kundli so that we can even move further. And fortunately our kundli also matched. 

And here comes the twist… I have diabetes for the past 8 years and I already told about this to girl even before we started dating and she didn’t had any problem. After kundli matching she told about this to her parents. And her parents totally declined for our relationship then. She was positive for 2 days that we will do something. But after that she started avoiding me and stopped receiving my calls. Before daily 2-3 times we were on call video call but after this even I called for 3-4 times then she receives call and not talking properly. 

First when we started dating we agreed on that we will not oppose our parents rather we will make them ready for our marriage. She had one relationship before but it ended on bad terms. At that time she decided and told her parents that from here onwards her mother would take decisions and will not go against her. She fell for the wrong guy which made her doubt in her own decisions. 

Now that her parents declined our relationship she also making wrong behaviour with me. I was ready to give her commitment but only because of health condition they won’t accept. She told me stay as friends but I don’t think that we can go on that path back. That’s when I stopped calling and messaging her. Unfriend her from every social media. Whenever I am alone I starts recalling all those memories. I was trying till the end but she gave up easily. At least she had to try at some point instead she chose to with her parents decision. Even if she said at least that my parents were not ready and we should stop it wouldn’t hurt instead avoiding me. 
And now she looks fine to me and i am the one who is depressed. 

Breakup

Just want lockdown to get over soon so that I can restart my workout.

Mental Wellbeing

Why do I feel the urge to get a girlfriend like idk randomly even though I know what I want to pursue in my life doesn't conclude of that especially only being in my teenage years currently. I have plenty of girls I talk to and have talked to girls in a flirty way but never felt it being important or necessary. I try to treat everyone i know in the best way possible but things never seem to escalate where I have really wanted a girl i knew to be my girlfriend but more just general crush if ygm. 

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