Am I not good enough 
Why don't you love like the way u love your other daughters
Why do u ignore me
Ppplleeeeeaaassseee make this stop

Family

Im frusterated with my mother. I just tried telling her that my favorite show was gonna finish tomorrow, and she was like haha I dont care. Then I told her she doesnt have to be a jerk about it and she took my phone. I clean this house every day, I listen to what SHE has to say, she talks shit to me all day, yet she still has room to punish me? i called her a jerk because it hurts that she has never cared about what I like, yet she forces every one else to care about what she likes. Idk im 18 and im getting tired of being stepped on. 

I smoked in class 3. My father should be responsible for setting up such a bad example for me. I'll tell him one day. 

Mental Health


“My Ocean”

My thoughts are my ocean
Going forever and ever
Sometimes there are thunderstorms
Sometimes it's calm
It goes on
But I stay
All I ask for the courage
To live on


3am Thoughts

Just wanna live in present, go with the flow , not worry about past nor about future..

Life

Going through a phase where I need someone with me to guide my thoughts and tell me that it's okay to not to be okay sometimes... 

Affirmations

I can’t make friends. I won’t make friends. So don’t push me now ever again. Enough

Hello everyone, 
 2 days ago I quit gaming for good since I don’t have time for it anymore. I tried to take time for it but I always got a bad feeling in my stomach when I started up a game and I closed it immediately really wanna play again it gave me a lot of joy and happiness but now with a full time job and a girlfriend who probably will be my wife in the foreseeable future I just don’t have time. My girlfriend started to blame herself for it and even suggested that I should take the time but I can’t I only see her on the weekends and it’s not an option not seeing her it hurts so much even thinking about it. What should I do my best friend whom I met because of gaming still wants to play with me and I still want to I feel very conflicted. In the moment I just want to leave it all behind me because this is a silly problem to have and I just want to forget about it .

Thanks to all who took the time  to read this.

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