Am I getting used??
Bore huye baat ki, khtm.
Rona tha baat ki, khtm.
Smjh nhi aaya kya kre baat ki, khtm.
What about me? Mera kya?
And this is not the first time with me.
Sometimes I feel, ki agr mai bhi, insensitive hota, cold-hearted, bad listener, don’t wanna help others… Toh shyd iss tarah baar baar - baar baar khud ko exploit hote huye toh atleast nhi dekhta…
Atleast koi nhi hota, lekin, pata nahi… Abhi toh people feel comfortable, they vent, they express, lekin, ughh Yaar thode toh Manners rkh skte hai… And the worst is I STILL CARE.
Ab ese hi hai toh kya kre? Batao?
M bht kam logo se baat krta hun, bcz ik I’ll feel pain for everyone and will help no matter what, and will end up exploiting myself…
Leave me alone.
Bhaad m jao sab.
Poor woor toh mtlb bolo yaar… Sunne m accha nhi lgta…
What about, Oh lost soul, or maybe, Oh Kind soul…
But yeah thanks.
So it’s my fault if I’m a nice person?
It’s my fault if I’m feeling pain for them?
It’s my fault if I made them comfortable to vent?
Thanks for such a nice comment.
Noo. I’m not talking about someone I feel attached… Maybe attached, as a friend… But still happens every time
Thanks. But it’s fine. I said about the people I have in my life.
Like I’m feeling hurted, ki I’m getting used. Log baat krte hai just because they want to… And use me for their own benefits, not a genuine connection most of the times…
Yeahh… I wish and I hope.
Yaar… Tum log kys soch rhe hi idk… Pata nhi ek bht stereotypical way m cheez le jaa rhe ho… I’m not talking about attachment at all.
I said ki bura lagta hai khud ko use hote huye dekhne mai… And pata nhi kya kro, q ki aap care krte ho, not because of attachment exactly, but just because that’s your nature, aap ese hi ho, hun toh hun na! Nhi dekha jyada logo ka dukh, unki problems, bura lgta h genuinely ki life kitni tough h kuch logo ke liye…
Nahi bann skte aap humesha doctor. Doctor nhi hun mai, insaan hun…
See that’s the point. Mai already upar likh chuka hun. I just can’t do that yaar…
There was this girl, she was hella toxic for me… I stopped talking to her, q ki meri mental health barbaad ho chuki thi usse baat kr kr ke… Lekin Covid happens, something happened with her, I get to know… Ab Nhi rok skta iss point pr apne aap ko… I talked with her, she felt comfortable, and gradually sab thk ho gya… Lekin kya? I promised myself to never talked to her, but kya kru yaar, jaisi bhi thi, jitni buri thi, dost thi meri… Itna itna bura aur harsh nhi ho skta mai khud pr ya dusre pr.
I am same person like you just like you i have same story and when I need someone to vent my feelings there is no one for me but when they need i am always there why they ignore me when I need them i just don’t learn to say no it’s my biggest problem ever