Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Am I a bad daughter?

I currently finished college, and I’m living with my father and brother. My mom is currently on our hometown, it’s an island in my country and it costs a lot of money to visit. My parents aren’t divorced or anything, but since we have an Airbnb in my hometown my mother’s the one taking care of it.

I feel like I have lived in this city for a decade now, and I’d love to start looking for job opportunities here, I’ll be visiting my mom for 3 weeks, but my father said that I should send CV’s to companies over there ( pls keep in mind that’s an island, so job opportunities are not the best in my opinion and it depends a lot on tourism) So I said that I don’t think it’s appropriate since I’ll be coming back to the city anyway and I really love the city. But he got mad at me and said that I did not had love in my heart towards my mother, and that I’m only thinking of myself.

I felt really bad about it, I’m already 23 years old and I’d love to experience new things, meet new people and do things that make me feel excited. I love my parents, but I feel like I care a lot about what they want me to do and what they think about me. I’m the youngest of 7 siblings and people assume that that fact makes me a spoiled or ungrateful brat, and because of this I feel like I always have to be trying my best for everything, don’t answer back and hold back my tears. I hate that I’m sensible. I feel like I’m such a disappointment.

Anyway, thanks for reading!