All said and done, I do have a decent jawline. It's the only part of my face which looks good. 

Body Dysmorphia

Do you want to talk ? It's okay I got you...

Life

Ab log apne illogical views km thop rhe hai yha sb smjhdaar hogye kya?? 😂

Adulting

just saved up for 5 months and bought my dream guitar!! 

Happy

So unusual 🙂 my best friend left me alone

3am Thoughts

i dont communicate my thoughts and feelings well ,i fear they'll be invalidated. i know my feelings are selfish so all the more reason for them to not be validated. im a burden and me not doing anything to fix it makes it worse. i wish to die everyday i just dont hve the courage to do it myself

I am girl and have a guy friend who later became my go to kind of friend, we talked a lot about many things sometimes I felt I am getting attracted towards him and many times it did not feel same. He said some really harsh words when there was some bad phase and that felt bad. Even though things got back on track and again we had that friendship. 
Later before covid our conversation get quite less and eventually it ended. Now if I call him he will talk to me but taht spark is missing, that connection is missing, even someitems miss that person and conversation we have. I am not a immature person I know things change but now I have developed a habit of talking to strangers and not having a real friendship which is not a very healthy thing I guess. Moreover, I someitems thought to tell him about this but I think he might not pay any attention to it or ignore it. Somehow he have changed a lot and I feel I am stuck in the past. I always want to talk likewe had in past, I know past doesn't come back I have to move on. But it is not changing since a long time everytime I think of talking to him and then feel very low self esteem for myself for feeling like this. I don't know what to do 

I lwk am hurt. My life isn’t how it use to be. I was happy and enjoyed living my life, wasn’t depressed n didn’t have anxiety. I miss my past cuz everything was so much better. My parents were together, even tho they never got along they still were together. My sister lived with me but now she dosent. She moved with my dad to arizona cuz her n my mom didn’t get along n it sucks cuz I live in Cali. I was so hurt crying for months cuz we were so close n she left without even thinking how it would effect me n my mom. I’ve been sick in n out the hospital not being able to hang with my friend since January n it really ruined my life. I’m scared that I’ll end up spending my 19th birthday in the hospital but I still got a few months. I have so much pain now n I have to fake a smile acting like I’m alright when I’m not. I’m always thinking abt my future like getting worried that I’m going to fail n not succeed in life. I have so much depression n anxiety now we’re it affects me. I’m really hurting yet it’s so hard to even try n vent to someone even if Ik that’s I can trust them. The only person I vent to is myself. I didn’t grow up in the best situation but I was at least more happier then I am now. I graduated highschool last year so that’s one thing that dosent stress me out n get to me. I just cry n keep everything in. My sister does not even talk to me like I call n txt her n she does not even respond anymore. It hurts n Ik cry abt that because we use to be so close. My depression gets to me a lot where I always feel like someone stabbed me in the heart cuz of how bad I’m hurting inside. 

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