All I wanted to be is productive but so many thoughts happening in my brain.I realised that I am going downwards slowly in so many aspects of academic career and since this is happening very slowly I couldn’t realise it that much.


Take some rest and then restart your work hope it will work

Productivity

Not very good!

Relationships

Hello everyone 

3am Thoughts

How are you guys 

Lonely

I met with an accident before few hours and i realized let alone frnds not even my parents were worried about me even tho im very much injured so yeah a bit sad today 

Yeah roz sabke posts pe happiness baatt ne wala bhi sad hota hai kabhi kabhi

Exhausted

Ukraine ☮️

Now&Me Thinks

This might be a long passage and I'm not sure that is what this platform is exactly for. 
I'm feeling lost and sad tonight. There are so many things going on inside my head. 
1. I had an uncomfortable argument with a new friend who I met three months ago. We became really close in those first months, we shared things that neither of us had told anyone else, we planned to travel around the world together and I think I really appreciate and love her (platonically). But, since this argument, we haven't talked for a week which has left me feeling very lonely and anxious. I'm not worried about not talking ever again, I know we will. We go to the same university and our friendship is already so strong (I think) that, it just wouldn't happen. We're both on summer vacation right now, so no excuse to see each other.
What's disturbing me most is that this past month we've really been arguing and not getting along. We both get frustrated at each other so easily and we're both really sensitive people which doesn't help at all. So talking became really difficult. Neither of us could really say anything without starting an argument, and now there is this looming tension between us that makes me really sad. Thinking over those first two months when we were inseparable, crying over how happy both of us were to have met each other, laying in the sun together talking and laughing about the silliest of things. I've been thinking it's like the honeymoon period of a relationship, although of course platonically. I'm hoping it's just a glitch in our close bond and our friendship will go back to how it was before these past few weeks, but it is definitely making me feel sick to the stomach and lonely.

2. Tonight, I met up with my high school friends who I haven't seen in a few months. One of the people in the group, I used to be really close with, but they've changed a lot. And tonight they talked of all these things everyone has done since I saw them last. Although maybe typical teenage things, I hadn't done them and it made me feel so small. I feel silly even writing this, I don't even know why this has made me so sad because I personally don't want to do the things they talk about (drugs etc). Maybe I feel like I'm missing out on something. I just feel so so tiny after being with them, this one friend in particular dumps all of this stuff on me, how they're so happy and doing so many new things with so many friends. They never ask about me or when they do they never really, listen, something I really value. But they're not toxic either, they're not a "bad" friend and I'm sure they have no idea I feel like this. I feel so drained, even thinking about all the experiences I might be missing out on. Being around these people unfortunately makes me feel really lonely.

I am lonely. I crave intimacy, warm hugs, and someone who adores me as I do them. I am tired of trying so much and receiving so little. I don't think anyone could understand what I would do for someone to truly, wholly love me for who I am.

Anxiety

Day 41 
( Thanks for reading) 
Have an exam tomorrow I know it's been soo long since I have given a full fledged exam offline . Will try too score good . U know what there are girls in my class and they are noo less than a nursary kid . Like how we as kids used to complain and get about things very fast , panic , giggle , crack insensible jokes and bitch about each other  that's how these people doo . I sometimes I am more mature than them or they are still kids . Like I am in my 2 nd year of graduation and these people can't get out of school . I have muted my unofficial grp and u know I have been in peace since than . Like they have the audacity too say that the teacher is wrong even though she has asked us too refer to the internet and make changes accordingly . I swear mam I am just feed up them . At first I used to respond to the grp try to help others  but I am just like fuck you . I wanted to be friends with them and they are in a grp . And the main thing is they all don't want to mix with others but are liable to know why did they bunk the class . Like I don't ask u don't talk to you can u please mind ur own business why are hell are u promoting problems in my lyf . Fuck I hate college .

Mental Wellbeing

Do you guys also do this... whenever someone sends you the screenshot, you also check the battery percentage...? 🙄

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