All I wanted to be is productive but so many thoughts happening in my brain.I realised that I am going downwards slowly in so many aspects of academic career and since this is happening very slowly I couldn’t realise it that much.


Take some rest and then restart your work hope it will work

Productivity

Oop so i said Happy pride month to this girl i like and wanna be friends with and she said it back and now im extra happy and giggly 🌈😊

Love

“My Life”

It's my life
My choices
Does that even matter? 
I try, I cry
At the end, I can't fly
What's the use? 
Let's break the fuse



3am Thoughts

How to take decisions in career. I already quit a job i didn't liked. Now iam in another career but not much doing great here also. Im confused if i will hate all the jobs? Im losing my confidence and feel like a failure. But one constant thing i feel is like im not dedicated towards my job😑 i don't know the reason behind it😓

Career

When I give time to my friends and actually attending to their issues, they act as if they have no time when I tell out the truth straight on their face. One of them is like "I am working and thus no time". I am working as well, it's not that I am jobless. It triggered my anger, I threw the house highlighter against a freshly painted wall and messed it up. I am in consultation with a psychologist myself to deal with my issues. And such friends mess up my mind even further and I can't think straight.

Anger Issues

I can feel literally sachi boht kabi nai milti 

I just wanted to know that my bf knows about me everything  he posted in social media that saying my gf is a pathological lier should I believe him again or not

Anxiety

I wanted to fall in love... but arranged marriage is only an option now🥲

Marriage

I'm feeling demotivated today because of my boss. i have been working for 2 years and he exactly know how i do my job task. I always finish my job on time, i dont care working extra hours,  i go extra miles to finish my work task. But, today he just coming back from his long holiday.  I have one pending task which is regarding on recruitment of staff.  As we work in-site of oil & gas company,  recruitment of staff is a bit different.  We need to submit a writing report for each of staff (medical, resume & justification on why we need new staff), then company will give us a date for safety induction. Since last week was a long weekend including public holiday,  progress on getting medical check up & submit to the company is postponed but we need new staff immediately because new contract have been received from this oil & gas company. 

On today meeting,  he was angry with another staff and on top of that,  recruitment progress are pending.  He said that i'm not follow up with high-ups and he ask other person to take the job. 

Nothing to his know,  that before, during and now, even on the long weekend i have been contacting and follow up daily and try to make sure all staff will be ready by 8/8. The progress right now ia about 10% left but he doesnt listened and give this to other people to finish. That person are not even brief by me yet and sent an email said that she need new staff like i am not doing anything for entire week. 

i am upset to the point i'm not able to sleep.

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