all i feel is no one is true to us even if we ate good all might say that is the world they are like that but the truth is i couldnt take it 

Frustration

Feeling very hopeless about life. Lots of anxiety and panic attacks. Constant reminiscences and memories are eating the life out of me. Lost my dad to corona last year and August and to actually pretty much think of how much life has changed and what yet is to come is horrifying. I just didn't lose a dad, but a companion and someone who loved and lived his whole life teaching how unconditional love can be. I feel scarred because of past trauma and emotional abuse that was lashed out onto me by my stepmother and the grief of having lost such a loving father and also caught up in the rut of having to decide where to go in future.

COVID-19

23 24 people are crying.
28 jobless with so many problems in life .

FL.



Addiction

Tenu yad na meri ayi kisi se ab kya kehna..

Compassion

I still think about it..
I still feel him
Everything i lay down i feel his weight on me on that bathroom floor 
As much as I try to ignore the it 
It's destroying me 
I can't do this anymore
I feel so guilty, and shameful 
I feel so dirty and disgusting 
And he even jokes about it 
"I r*ped that b!tch named [my name]"
and they LAUGH about it 
It's been four months
He's in 3 out of 6 of my classes and in two of those classes he sits next to me 
His stupid smug smile 
His stupid face in general 
I wanna punch him 
But i'm terrified of him because he theratens to do it again 
And expose the @buse that happens at home and get me sent away
He has a grip on me 
He could do it again if he wanted to 
I'm even terrified to go to school 
i just wanna be free that's all i want 


Harassment

Who will fight for relationship when that girl itself not understanding us

Exhausted

Yesterday something crazy happened, I was with my friends and we played some Holi and last night I consumed a lot of alcohol. I was so drunk that I hardly remember anything. Today morning when I got up I was in my undies and one of my guy friend who is also my crush was sleeping beside me. I remember faintly that we kissed last night. Idk what happened after that but as I was in my underwares I guess something must have happened. Idk what to do? I am still feeling dizzy and have headache. Should I talk with him? He is still sleeping. I talked with my best friend she said to talk with him. I'm soo confused and irritated. 

Relationships

Very disturbed. I was in relationship for 2 yrs ,3 months ago we broke up and i was the reason(kind of) so she left me, and few days back a guy texted me saying she isn't happy, 2 days back I texted her 'Hi' so the rply came 'what' and I didn't rply and after few minutes rply came asking money (which I borrowed from her when we were in relationship) , and a day after she called telling me to meet her or give money, after few arguments I rejected both(meeting her and giving her money back) before which said I'll give her back, so she gave the phone to his guy frns and they started bullying me very rudely!.. 
And she again asked to meet her. I asked why? 
She said it's about us and she wanted to talk about us. 
Idk what to do. 😓

Breakup

And since 13 March we haven't talked. He says that he wants to move on. And I am still hurting. How should I cope with it?

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