All I be everyday whole day is hopeless, anxious, irritated and depressed, that’s just not who I want to be, but I don’t have will or any motivation left to fight. I’ve become so good in faking that I don’t know now whether I’m faking everything or is everything happening inside is real. I get such strong impulses to just not exist and rather die. I don’t want to die but I see no point in living like this. I have friends and family who love me but I can’t even talk to them. I don’t know what I’m doing? How am I going to live? What will I do? What’s happening to me?
Just go help someone in need.
Identify if you are in depression. If you don’t like to get up from the bed in the morning and sad when you are alone, you feel lonely anyway most of the time and reason you attribute for being sad is anything and everything. That’s depression most likely.
Been there. Now living a great life.
Have a pact with universe to help you get out of the rut and will in return you will help others with my life. It will pull you out.
Time will change, you will change for better. Meantime find things to do that you will thank yourself later. Read books, learn to cook, exercise, learn a language, learn music.
Life in a human form is too precious to let it go down. Only humans can appreciate the rain shower, sunshine, freshly blossomed flower, water droplet on a grass blade.
I want you to take a deep breath and sit down with your feelings as to what could be the possibilities to it. Then, once you get towards it even if its 2%, feel good about it. Its a progress.
People do have these feelings when they don’t get desired outcomes or have gone through something bad, but isn’t this the way to make ourselves stronger? The will to fight back and have a sense of satisfaction. Life is about hardships, struggles, happiness, success and failure and each thing is needed in life in order to become a better individual.
So, fight back with these thoughts and say to yourself today- I am not meaningless, I don’t want to die, I don’t want to feel the way I am feeling and I am going to start fresh. Because its my life and I am the one who has to make it better.