Age - 31
Hope no body will judge. I m here specially not for the solution I m here just to throw my heart out. I was born to hindu brahmin family. My family is really nice but they have one issue they r really conservative they hate muslims. They always criticized muslim 10 years ago their hate push me to learn Islam I read all religious books quran was my last book in my journey of finding true religion and why my family hating them without any reason. I found my self attracted toward Islam and I reverted 8 years ago. During this journey I met a Muslim boy he felt for me I felt for him we dated for 8 years. Meanwhile I told my family about my religion.
Problems I m facing now is my family hates me they want me back in Hinduism which I m not gonna do. My bf told me he can’t marry me after 8 years of dating, I m unemployed, I developed serious disease. I lost everything, I just want to die but in this age I understand sucide is not the solution. I m facing this problem countinusly from last three years. There hasn’t been a single day when I not cried or I not begged Allah to help me. I can’t say these things to any body I can’t share my feelings to any one neither family nor ex bf or any friends . U know I don’t like expressing my self on internet, but sad part is no body knows how I feel. I don’t know what action I should take. I m a kind of women who always helped others with their problems.i helped them to overcome from breakup,from financial instability,from family trauma and now I m in this condition where I can’t ask help from anyone. Now a days I doing only one thing, I sit with quran I seek help from allah I knw praying for my death is not right thing to do and Allah won’t like it still I want death. Almighty plz let me die I want to rest in peace.and plz no one suggest me to convert back to my born faith I respect them but I love Islam more than anything in this world apart from that suggestions u guys can suggest anything although as I mentioned I m not here for solution I just want someone to listen what truly I feel without judging my decision
Mine one may sound a little crazy. But being at a place where you feel. Lost is wortth nothing. I think you should change city. Live in a new place where you can tell people that you are a Muslim and no one will know your past. Get yourself a small job which can sustain your life. And hopefully you will find love of your life there too.
Crazy but think about it. Loads of love and strength to you.
HKC @kasey5
You did what you feel is right and NO ONE has the right to judge you. Your faith brought you here and hold onto that faith. Don’t even lose hope on God or yourself. If He brought you to it, He will get you through it. You’ve hoped for too long…hold onto that for a little longer. Things will move ahead and you will have a brighter future. :)
Nusrat @vaishnavi00118
It’s fine and instead of judging you I am adoring you. You set an example for me. And I trust on you if you can take such bold decision converting from a conservative brahmin to muslim then I believe you can do anything and I know this is not the end. You are different your life story should be different. May Allah soon provide you the right path. ❤❤
Amen. And thanku for kind words.
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