Again this shitty routine starts. Laptop kholo kaam karo. Fed up of this. 

Short trip pe jao toh aisa lgta hai wapis aye hi na pehle hi kaam karna pasand nahi.

Everyone is going through same ...why don't you take a break and go for a short trip somewhere. 

Frustration

Maybe I will never be who I was before. Maybe I don't even know her anymore. Or maybe who I am today ain't so far from yesterday. Can I find a way to be every part of me?

Mental Illness

Life tab tak kafi sahi thi yrr...
Woh ribbon se 2 choti banke school jate the... 
Tab kandho pe bas woh bag ka wajan rehta tha... 
Katti batti wali dosti pakki wali thi... 
Tension tab bas kitabon aur studies ki thi... 
Aur dar sirf teacher or maa baap ka tha....
Sala school chod kya diya 
Life ne toh exams he lene lagi....
Woh kehte hai na
" The day I stopped wearing my school uniform is the day everything started going wrong " 😭




Adulting

Do you ever experienced an dream like this 👇

While traveling a long trip an stranger boy/girl
Sit beside 
Talking random things, introduction, knowing eachother, at the end of trip he/she propose you




Celebration

As im writing this im literally feeling scared to death. Its my 2nd drop for NEET and only 20 days are left for the exam. I ALREADY FEEL LIKE A FAILURE.
A few days back i gave my first full syllabus test and i scored so low like not even 300.
I wasted my previous drop year and thats why i couldn't score much and in the first attempt i wasnt even aware of what to do and why is it so difficult to crack the exam because there is no one in my family who would guide me and i have never taken any coaching or something, so i didnt study well.
This year was my last chance and honestly speaking i didnt want to do it but just because my parents expect so much from me and really want me to become a doctor they convinced me to take another drop, which i took and now here i am.
I really tried so hard this time and im still trying but idk why im loosing my confidence. I have always been among the toppers in my school, and now when i cant even score average marks for this competitive exam it hurts.
I know its a different thing but still the only thinf im scared of rn is i dont want to disappoint my parents for the 2nd time. 
To be honest i have sc category quota and i can get a govt med college in less marks too but i really want to score good just so i dont feel  later that im not deserving.
At this point i dont know what to do..my only focus is to improve myself as much as i can. I dont want to take another drop, im waiting for that moment when i hear my parents say "we are proud of you".... I dont know if that will ever come or not
Just wanted to rant my feelings here because i dont feel like talking to any of my friends or even my parents (dont want to stress them out)

Baaki to i know Mere Madhav humesha mere sath hain...bss mai acche se padhu baaki vo smbhaal lenge


Exam

Do you ever feel so drained about a situation that you don't know how you're supposed to act or what you are supposed to say to/about it anymore? Because that is where I am at with this dude. I am super close with his best friends, I met them through him. They all live together right now. His friends want me to hang out with them when I come home for spring break next week. Before this past week this dude (we will call him Sam), Sam kinda stopped talking to me because I went off on him after he told me he didn't want a relationship after sending me very mixed messages and stringing me along. He still hasn't responded to me going off on him but just keeps telling me he wants to figure out the right way to respond. All of a sudden Sam is snap chatting me again and just talking to me like normal, friendly. His friends tell me that Sam told them he wants to be friends with me and makes jokes with them about how I could probably "pull them" and how I'd probably make them want to date me because of how nice and pretty I am. The moral of the story Sam is acting like a jealous boyfriend even though he and I never had the boyfriend/girlfriend title. I don't hate him, I liked him a lot. He was the first guy that I've ever liked more than a friend. And he is confusing me and still sending me mixed messages. I am more than okay with being friends with him but I need boundaries and this said friendship that he wants needs to be established. But here I am waiting for him to grow a pair and respond to my last message about what happened. I am just so frustrated and don't know how I should be feeling or responding anymore. 

Life

I feel numb hurt and done . I feel like no matter what I do I fuck up im just a fuck up all ways have been always will  be  .  Think I just lost my roomate as a friend she is my only friend now I'm back down to 0 I dont want to try any more I hurt i hurt so much I don't know what do do . 

Depression

Khao piyo mast raho !


Acquaintance

My mom needs me and I really wanna go do other stuff but she needs me and I don't know what to do. like my whole time I spend it with her and I need to do other stuff but can't leave her alone 

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