Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

After years of not being able to talk women up till grade 10, this shit feels overwhelming… So, guys, you see, I was in a school that completely abolished boy-girl interactions cuz the management took the Dubai government’s rules a bit too seriously, which was pretty much the only “con” it had along with the fact that it didn’t have classes for grade 11 and 12, so ultimately I had to move to different school once I finished my 10th. And when I did… it was absolute hell, shitty teachers shitty everything and stupidly high fees, but, boys and girls were allowed to freely interact. It went all downhill at that point, I had panic attacks every few seconds, I outright seemed rude to women cuz i outright ignored them during even the slightest interactions for obvious reasons and when I got to text a few them on insta they got creeped out by me cuz i didn’t know how to talk to them and I used the good ol’ “homiesexual” way, the most common way these days for boys to talk to… well boys and not girls. Now I am back to square one yet again, literally avoiding contact with all women in my school and I don’t know what to do, at this point people suspected me to be gay when in reality I’m definitely not but still, all this is borderline traumatizing to me.