After spending the whole day. fir se whi feelings.... bss these nights will go out.... I never felt this bad.. Everyone says, forget it, move on, do this, do that, do something new. I have spent 5 years with her and haven't spent a single day without her. All future dreams are with her... I don't know what is happening with me... I am standing between death and life.

Don't suppress your feelings, let yourself feel and just accept that it happens and you were wrong. 

Anxiety

There's this girl who I study with and I can't stop thinking about her but I still playing like I don't even see her whenever I meet here ,I think iam too coward to take a move and it's painful to see the chance to get her faiding away while iam Shure that she likes me back.

Crush

HELLO!
So it’s been 3 months I been seeing this woman. However before meeting her I had gone out on many dates but this one stuck around some how and things got quite ahead to point were I guess we both have feelings for each other. But recently only I mustered sone courage to be more vulnerable and express how I feel about her. she also feels the same which to me is a bit unexpected because with I was thinking that I w oh of dher a different kind of reaction where I have to play hard to get (as I have with my past relationships which never worked out) but this girl doesn’t, she is so drama free that I feel am the lil dramatic one lol. 

Anywya so we talk about a lot about it and I said ik what I feel for you is true and genuine but idk what to do with that and also I don’t want to ask out? I want her to do so.
I am so confused, shall I take some more time to come to a conclusion or shall I just go with it.

The reason I feel hesitant to take any action right away I guess it roots from my previous relationships where things went south so this feels too good to be true.

HELLLPPPP

Relationships

Those who read this to know my small part of my love life welcome 😊.Today I am tired I am in stress ,confuse, angry .You know bro I think I am lucky why obviously I have family, friends (both close and stranger like you 😘)but one more stuff which I was feel like I am  lucky when I met her and the strange part is after few days she shared her feelings and I was fool bcz I don't trust her I just thought is she going to playing with me you know like mentally and more we talk after days she might know I was thinking about her during our conversation then days gone she tried to interpret me that I am not in love I am just in attached with her but I can't understood because it is  my first so I take time to explain myself but  when days gone I only think about her and now I want to move on this stuff but I can't idk why ?😔😔

Love

Hi everyone, i have never brought up my feelings or issue via online but i feel like talking to someone or at least share my feelings. Let me try to summarize it..
I was in a complicated relationship with my ex colleague (its complicated and wrong but is real love).
We were so in love that we stick by each other most of the times during office hours and after office hours. 
Things started to change when i lost my job few months back due to covid, it was tough on us as we were not able to see each other that often anymore and it really took a toll on her, she was sad and i stood by her all the while. I couldn't find a job for about 3 months and thats when we started to have small fights and slowly leading to bigger ones. We just couldn't adjust to the sudden changes in us and i realise that our daily conversation somehow has changed, she stop calling me nicknames and sending her morning photos. The love basically vanished, i was so upset and did bring it up to her and discuss about it a few times. Things got better for a week or so and slowly back to how it started. So today i decided to ask her again and be honest with me if she still loves me, but she just told me she couldn't see a future in us as we have a complicated status. I did try to convinced her not to give up on us but she knew what she wanted already but was waiting for me to say it or somehow hanging on to thin hopes, so we ended up agreeing to end this and remain as close friends. I acted like im okay but it kills me on the inside, at least i got an answer after few weeks of casual chats and cold treatment. So ya thats about it, is a long story but have to cut it short.. just finding a place to spill my heart out.
Ohh ya i got myself a job this week and this shit happens today, life is unfair

I treated her as a queen, loved her as a child. My 7 years relationship came to an end, she left and moved with some other guy. I’m not in my state of mind 🙃

Breakup

I thought she liked me, I got attached. Now I know she didn't even think about me even at that time but I still want her the same. Why?

3am Thoughts

So Here's my story... everyone says there is someone out there for everyone, 

But I can never find anyone who won't destroy me. 

is this truly the case? So I have been in many relationships with girls who lie, cheat, steal, and abuse to the point of depression and suicidal thoughts  

I had an ex girlfriend who lived at the Isle of Wight. things were great. but I started to notice subtle signs. we moved in together down there and this when things went dark very quickly. I was locked in a room by her parents, no food. no phone. electric was turned off at night, I was only allowed out of the house if I was going to the beach gym. and I had to prove I had been there.. she told me she was pregnant so of course I focused on her and her needs. After a while I managed to escape the Isle of Wight... one night her parents went to work. I packed my bags and left that night. ran an hour to the ferry station and boarded a ferry back to Britain. 

at this time I had no idea of the manipulative side of her. 

fast forward a few months. and we decide to move in together. we had not much money so decided to settle on a little flat. Little did we know this was a drug dealers house.. at night the people downstairs decided they wished to Rob us and kick us out. so at 2am I phoned the police and advised what to do. worried for the poor child and for her safety. the police came in and took us away from there and to my house for safety, 

Once home my mother started to grow suspicious. my ex had made me move away from my family and convinced me they were against me the whole time.. so they devized a plan. they invited her round for dinner. 

Once she had accepted we walked to my house  where my sister (a medically trained nurse)  had a pregnancy test waiting for her as she was convinced she was hiding something.... she was, She was NEVER pregnant... it was all fakery. Once my mum questioned her on this she admitted that she wasn't and that it "must have died" this was the final straw. she was shipped back to the Isle of Wight on a train and bought a ferry ticket home...... that was the end of her 

A few years later I learnt to love again, a wonderful woman we were together for 3 years!  and I thought she was the one. one day I decided I was going to surprise her after she had been to a festival, 

I booked a taxi up to see her and went to visit her at the house  I texted her saying I was on my way- no reply. 

Once I got there I saw her light on and shouted up. she came to the window and closed it.. which i thought was a bit odd. no bother I shouted again.  nothing... a third time... nothing.. I texted her to say spent the last of my money to get down and I was going to cook her a cooked breakfast. 

I waited... and waited ... and waited.... she eventually texted back and my face dropped... "go home I don't feel very well". to which I replied I can't. I had no way home... I was left out there all night in shorts and a t-shirt in the middle of a thunderstorm.... a few weeks later I asked what it was about. 

I asked my best friend what it was about....  she was cheating on me with him... on the day that my family pet had passed away(she knew this) She was in bed with my now ex best friend...
After we broke up I took a break and vowed only to date again if I thought I wa very sure my trust was broken... 

I thought for the longest time I was free from abuse... but I was wrong... 

Fast forward to just last week. I had been dating a woman since the 17th July 2021. so quite recent. and she was lovely. I gave her my world. I looked after her, treated her well. things were amazing, I felt like I could love again! 

So what happened? 

everything was fine for a while. Then one night me and her had an argument and at that point I wanted to move out. We both got angry and started to shout at each other. But that was about it..  She started screaming to get out so I packed my stuff ready to leave. her dad came blazing in and got really aggressive saying he wanted to hit me and stuff. To which point I said I wanted to go. He took my PlayStation off me after saying give it to him or he was gonna hurt me. At which point I was cowering in the corner as he got a knife out of the kitchen drawer. my ex tried to hold him back and he was screaming at me calling me this that and the other. 

(Night 1) 
At night me and her were asleep in our room and her dad heard something outside in the hallway. So he instantly thought I was spying on him. He came into our room in the morning and started shouting at me saying I was spying on me. He tapped me around the face saying I lied when I said I was sleeping the whole time and had not moved. 

At that point I began to question if that would happen every night and if he got that aggressive every single night. What would be next! I then said to him I felt uncomfortable which he said he would never hurt me he was just testing me ect.... things were fine for a few days when I still felt uncomfortable I said I wanted to leave. At that point he took my phone off me and my console saying I had to pay him £250 and to leave at 4 in the morning. I asked if I could have my phone to message mum and ask for the money. Once I received my phone I messaged my mum saying I felt unsafe and didn't know what to do. At which point they contacted the police and asked for advice. The police's advice was to take me away from the property to the police station until my parents could come collect me. 

The police arrived around 3ish at night and picked me up. Took me away from the caravan. And asked me if I wanted to go back which of course I said no to. 

When the police went to get my stuff he stated that I only had one bag. The blue one i have with me now and no other. Due to police not being able to enter they could only recover one. As of now my ex and her dad has began selling my clothes and my console. 

I have received messages and calls from both of them saying that I had to pay them money to get my stuff back which I sent 50 over but nothing more. she and her dad phoned me and explained if I didn't pay them my stuff would be burnt (her dad singing burn baby burn in the background while laughing) 

I then stated I wasn't going to send any further money over unless her father sent a picture of my stuff and apologised for the hurtful things he said to which he did nothing. 

Since that my ex put up a tictock saying that I hurt her and ruined her life until I told her I had screenshotted it. She took it down shortly after. Now she's said she's going to ruin my life because of it. 

She told me last night that she had a "miscarriage" and has had to be rushed to hospital as it may be "serious" I said good luck to her but I don't wish to be in contact anymore with her. Due to what has happened. it felt like the Isle of Wight all over again, She's told people I have hit her and abused her which is simply never true. I have never and would never hit a woman. let alone abuse them 

anyway. truth be told I'm in the darkest of places now and would just love someone nice to talk to. I don't know if il ever love again as I just can't trust anything anymore... please, I'd there's someone out there to talk to. I'd love to talk to you.. 

thank you for listening.. 

Jake. 25.

Sudden realization I will never get her
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