After all of your suggestions I thought of giving a chance to my ex bsf but what she did today makes me hate her even more. 
So today I was dressed all pretty and legit everyone did compliment me, one of my classmate was telling that my shoes go well with my outfit but my '''ex bsf''' told, "usme kya he itna,  shoes toh kisko bhi ache hi dikhte he" 🙃

Vikrant 

Sumit kumar

You are creating scene ... Streching small things is bad for your current relationship as well as for your future relationships

Friends

It's pretty hard to shoo away the loneliness inside, isn't it? Still feeling empty no matter how hard I tried to erase this loneliness


Lonely

Slowly gliding my prose
Over her wet, ravenous soul
Until she opened wide her walls
And let me thrust deep
Inside her beautiful mind.

Poetry

attention is not love, attachment is not connection and the bare minimum is not effort 

3am Thoughts

So grateful for being alive & healthy! 

Hi, I'm new here and I hope this isn't too judgemental of a platform. 
I would talk to my friends about this but I know they'd judge me for doing what I've done lol. 
So I started talking to this guy who used to be in my class early on in uni. I used to sort of have a crush on him.
We hit off pretty decently as friends and we moved on to calling each other often. When my uni reopened, I went over to his place to hang. 
At the time I didn't realize but, he was clearly attracted to me physically. We almost kissed but I stopped at the last possible minute because of my anxiety issues lol. I was also genuinely confused about what we were supposed to be because he'd explicitly stated that he wasn't looking to date anyone from uni because we were almost done with it. It made sense logically so I agreed with him, but I didn't understand why he was making a move on me.
After texting him I realized he was looking for a Friends with Benefits situation. I told him that I was definitely going to get attached to him in an FWB situation and I wasn't willing to invest time in such drama. He understood and let the whole thing drop.
I went over to his place another time and he'd gone straight back to being friends like the last time didn't happen. That was a good thing but it still felt really weird to me, to not have the situation acknowledged in person.
But I let it slide because I was glad that we were still friends. We still continue talking to each other, every week or so.
I was calling him again last night, and even though he'd agreed to drop it, things started to get explicit. Now I'm obviously also attracted to him and I've gotten pretty comfortable around him. I also do trust him.
We ended up sending nudes to each other and I wasn't uncomfortable and the whole thing was consensual.
But I still kind of feel bad for having done it because we aren't really exclusive. I know for certain there are other girls like me whom he talks to. I don't know how to feel about any of this lol.
He's obviously moved on from all of this, while I'm still here thinking about it.
I guess the obvious solution would be to put a stop to all of this but I'm 20 and I have barely any experience physically and I feel like I'm wasting the prime of youth lol.
All I'm asking for is some exclusivity, you know. I don't even want to date him. But I'm afraid asking him will put a stop to our friendship, which I've spent a good chunk of my time on.

I don't know how to feel or what to do or whom to talk to.
Can someone help

Thanks for reading, if you made it this far :)


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