Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

A rant of random emotions…
There were many I things I felt today… Why I am growing up, I mean my age is adding up just a month back my birthday was gone it just like a normal day I didn’t feel special it’s okay for me but I felt wierd like why this day came up, I didn’t want this day to come to see the reality… there were few texts of one line wish… one pic stories by few people but I didn’t feel any good in it… like it was not for me. On other hand I felt I don’t have friends.
Today I watched ‘Dear Zindagi’ movie for 1st time and thank god I watched it this point of time to understand how’s it feel and the things said. So…
I thought I really don’t have friends yr with whom I can share anything… Mujhe esa kabhi laga hi nahi ki mera koi friend hai mtlab I always felt sab relations upar upar se hai… no one actually mean this, idk really tha ya nahi. But yeah koi dost nahi tha or na hai. Banaye hi nahi.
Why?
Fear. Of?
Judgements, that suspicious smiles, laughs on back, sweet on face, getting
Ignored after knowing more and so and so.
By?
People outside but before that parents kuch alag hi beliefs me wo hi haste the to bakiyo ka kya… bas then sab khtam.
Thanks for listening to me. I know it’s ajeeb why I wrote this here but it’s comforting and now feeling good it’s out. :))