A post from a mutual friend reminded me of my ex again. I'm stuck in the loop. He was toxic and has done a lot of damage to my personality. My heart aches. We had mutual friends and I was really nice to them. They had acted all mean to me so I had cut them off. I'm just upset. It has been 8 months and it still hurts like a fresh wound. Why did he hurt me so bad... Why did those friends turned mean to me... 

Thank you for responding and sharing valuable advice. I do feel good but sometimes get caught up in the past. I guess there is no use to try to dig up the past. It's only going to hurt me. 

I feel more empowered since my life is in my control now and I am finally doing things I always wanted to do. I just wish the concept of Karma exist at times. I feel like life is unfair at times you know. You do the everything deemed as perfect yet people walk over you and get away with all the damage they have done. 

Breakup

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Bhid mai hote hue bhi tanhai bani rhi,
Mehfil mai sub the lekin teri kami bani rhi,
Chahre per tere bina, jhooti hassi bani rhi 
Tu chali gai, lekin tere bina ye saase ab bhi bani rhi.. 


PS : For all the men !!! 


One Sided Love

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3am Thoughts

Being good is not incentivised enough. I always stay true to everyone but am a workaholic and most of times I am not able to give the kind of attention girls expect but is that reason enough to leave. Yesterday was my birthday and she didn't even wish me, when I somehow called she said she is with someone. We were planning to get married, I have seen enough life to handle myself but suddenly it hurts, it does very badly...... 


Any football fans premiere league or ucl watcher

What's your fav team
Mine is Liverpool
What about yours?


Supportive

Do you feel that you get over attached with people whether its relationship or friendship…Like you so easily get carry away by someone affection that you over do to make them feel happy and whatever you do that comes genuinely through your kind heart…Buttttt when the time comes people never put even 1/3 of effort to make you happy…Sometimes i feel expecting anything from anyone is worthless coz at the end you keep getting hurt…Still learning it in a hard way..But i would still be kind hearted and empathetic to people around me…

Hope

hey whoever and wherever you're, i wish you'll always have a good day.
   i aa... i don't know and i don't have anyone to talk about this or maybe im to ambarrassed and scared. but i think i don't have any interest in dating woman or men either. two months ago there's a boy who confessed at me(iam a girl) when i still in highschool i had a crush with him but i end up rejected him. its not bc i don't like him anymore but its more like i can't feel anything about him. why can i say that? bc he asked to sleep with him and i give it a try but i can't feel anything anymore and trun up that we only chit chat on the bed. its not just with him, but i tried with another boys but it end up we were playing games. i know they're turn on but im not.

then last month when i scrolling my twitter and there's a video about gay couples kissing, i feel turned on. am i weird? i tried to look another video about gay couple and i feel like jealous about them, i wanted that kind of relationship and feel sorry and angry that i born to be a girl. i even turn on everytime i watched gay guys lovey dovey. i watched another video about lesbian or straight but its not like i watched gay guys. i dont know what happened with me, i feel confused, i even think dating a guy but the gay one. 

im sorry my english was bad like shit bc its not my mother language, but if understand and can give some advice please coment i really felt lost. thank you, love chameleon :)


LGBTQ

Any medico here 

You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. 
Go to adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes on library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot... 

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