A post from a mutual friend reminded me of my ex again. I'm stuck in the loop. He was toxic and has done a lot of damage to my personality. My heart aches. We had mutual friends and I was really nice to them. They had acted all mean to me so I had cut them off. I'm just upset. It has been 8 months and it still hurts like a fresh wound. Why did he hurt me so bad... Why did those friends turned mean to me... 

Thank you for responding and sharing valuable advice. I do feel good but sometimes get caught up in the past. I guess there is no use to try to dig up the past. It's only going to hurt me. 

I feel more empowered since my life is in my control now and I am finally doing things I always wanted to do. I just wish the concept of Karma exist at times. I feel like life is unfair at times you know. You do the everything deemed as perfect yet people walk over you and get away with all the damage they have done. 

Breakup

yuh yuh someone talk to me :)
i'm mega bored in 1:30 and i have to wake up at 7 and i can't sleep bc im a little child and im having "nightmares" and im scared to sleep 
so lets chat ;p

Your daily reminder that your mental health struggles are perfectly valid and you aren't fragile nor do you overreact. You don't owe anyone any explanation for that. Take care peeps. Sending love and positivity 

Life

My friend owed me some money 
recently the game i always wanted to buy was on 80% discount 
and he don't want to return my money 
so i cant buy it there two more days left for the discount😭

Guys i need help..i broke up wdh my boyfriend because hum dono ka ego beech me aa rha tha. But we genuinely love each other But ab breakup krne k bad yad lag rha he..kya hua yaar ek or baar sort kr lete. Thode fights hote he toh kya hua sath me kitne khush he apan. 
We were together for 5 years.(.long distance) against all odds we made a long distance work for 5 years. But we broke up now cuz he starting controlling me and doubting me that I'm cheating on him. But i really love him. Now I'm confused me kya karu.
We always fight cuz I'm a problem fixer. Kuch bhi baat ho meko tab k tab baat kr k sort out krni hoti he. But he prefers gussa shant hone k bad sort krna. isliye jab me baat krne k liye ready hoti hu he will be like kuch nai kuch nai. And jab vho baat krne k liye ready hota he tab tak me give up kr chuki hoti he. Please meko batao ki usko jaa k manau ya nai? And also he lied to me. And when I asked abt the reason for lying toh bolta he Mera dimaag ni chal rha tha. Please help me

Boyfriend

Can any one motivate me to study 
I got lot pending already
#study

Psychology

Today my day was awesome.  It will be great day a had. Just going to metro station. 

Affirmations

Friendship with boys

I might get a lotta hate for this but fuck it

Ever since I was child, I noticed that whenever it was a combined group of boys and girl, the boys overpowered the girls in terms of the amount of power they held

Sure there was banter and jokes and deep bonding as well, but I found that boys would always be the ones to crack jokes at the expense of the  girls. Not because the girls were dumb(sometimes they were), but because we were taught to not retaliate. And our retaliations were just downright dismissed

Like I recall so many instance where I'd/my friends would make a comeback/clapback but the boys would decidedly scoff it off and dismiss us vs were it were a dude, they'd splutter like crazy. Like all of my jokes had to be delivered after a certain point keeping in mind this unseen bar, set by them  

Another thing was that in any social gathering, you were expected to orbit around them. Like they are the inner circle and they just keep you or allow you around then bc it add value to their life to have you as supporting roles to their *main charachter* energy/farce/role

Ps: I feel like jokes are such a poignant examples of who you can/can't make fun. And by extension, who has, or hasn't got authority over you. Like you boss 

Boys, at least in group where they outnumber girls, have such a near toixc power/hold over the girls. It's frustrating af

By extension you'll also notice this in any gathering of men and women. The expectation of women to orbit around men and laugh passively at any fart oa joke a boy/man cracks and then to be told you're too serious if the asswipe is saying something sexist or plain stupid

Bullying

after coming here I've realised one thing that here everyone cares only about his/her problem including me I've also become like everyone!! 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts