"A man will run back to his ex because he has full control over her" Ladies be careful

Or you've never been in a relationship that's all

Breakup

Kinda okay but I feel nowadays I miss my dad more as compared to earlier. Idk why?? what's happening to me!! I just cried so bad today...Well I 5 when he died... I just wanna hug him for the last time and give a final goodbye he told me he'll come back before going to the hospital but he never did....and I also dunno why the hell I'm writing these things here🤧but the thing is I just wanted to share what I have in my heart since long... 

Mental Wellbeing

Lonely and feeling bored

Lonely

I’ve been friends with this guy, we’ll call him Chris, for almost my whole life, since childhood, and I’ve been dating him for almost two years now. Chris has made my life so good… he knows how to help me when im upset, he’s respectful and kind, he’s hilarious and he makes me so happy. I could go on and on about how much I love him, but then there would be to much to fit into this message. Anyway, yesterday was a day I’ll never forget… Chris was seriously injured in a car accident, he’s in a coma in the hospital. I’m a very emotional guy, and my parents don’t really care about me, so I’ve always relied on Chris to help me, but if I lose him, I don’t know what I’m gonna do… I can’t stop crying and it’s hard to breath… I don’t want to lose my boyfriend… 

Anxiety

I'm seeing it happen all over again. My nightmares are killing me. I am exhausted and need rest but I can't relax. 

3am Thoughts

Damn these sudden waves of sadness..!
So much happened in the past year, and trying everyday harder than before to forget.
But ending up living with them, hurting myself.
Not Sad
Not Happy
Just Breathing..

Adulting

Two years since my break up. My Ex got married to another person. She was not interested in that marriage too. But was forced by her family. We both couldn't do much at that situation. We both did so many flaws. But after two years now she is happy with other person. She has kids. She is living her life happily without me. But for me it was hell. We both live on same street, so i am seeing her often with her husband. She completely forgot me. She moved on. I consultant with a doctor for some time and i felt ok after taking medications. But whenever I see her again that feel triggers me. I am constantly imagining about things we both used to talk. Now she would be doing those with her husband. These thoughts killing me. I am not interested in any others. I couldn't move on. My life struck at a same place for the past 2years. I couldn't concentrate much on my work too. Need a big help in this. I have to come out of this please. 

I am not feeling good at all! I have a immense need for love, I can't trust my parents because they only care about their wisdom not about the person. I want to end my life, I can't trust on anybody , am not feeling secure in my own house.


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