A long post regarding my feelings
I donβt understand why I born in the era of fake promises and false hopes. Am not that kind of person who can sugar coat words to make someone happy. I donβt crave for temporary connection. Starting se I was clear that I need just one single special person for my life. But nowadays people donβt like efforts, time, care , understanding. If I show my love,care etc I got ignored. People want casual things which I canβt give as am a old school lover person. I still believe in putting small efforts in normal moments to make someone smile. But whenever I tried to give my best for someone, they ignored me. Am tired of putting efforts. I started feeling like being good and being available for loved ones is bad as they donβt value these things. Is it bad being real , is it bad being genuine, is it bad giving best for your love, is it bad being loyal for love??? Kya ab logon ko serious hona pasand nhi, kya ab emotional hona bekar hota?
This feeling creates self doubt! Though
True, am tired of it
I know bro !
Itβs tough. Take care
Hmm
Emotional hona and humare emotions, dono hi valuable hote hai. Everything you have written here makes so much sense and is true. When you feel when you can do so much for people, to realise youβve been the only one invested , that hurts. And the people who are the most hurt from all these is the sensitive ones. Would say ,dont give your all to everyone, be very selective with it. Not everyone deserves our energy, right?
And there are people who value understanding, efforts etc , more than anything else. Take care ( you arenβt the only one feeling these) π
I am selective person,I donβt keep options. When I am with one person am genuinely with that one only
I know am not the only one, but I havenβt met someone like me till now and I am tired of suffering, being alone etc.
Ek fear settle ho rhi hai, I want to discuss it with you but again Darr lagta ab kisi se apni baat share krne m qki feel hota at the end everyone will leave
I wish you meet someone like you, so understanding and a complete old school, thatβs the best thing.
I got these sort of blessings alot but still am suffering badly and havenβt meet such person with whom I can cry and tell that how badly I need someone who can understand me . Am tired of being alone.
You can share and discuss it. Here as well. I know thatβs the fear guarding you and its okay. Take your time before opening up to anyone , take your time to believe
I feel I should accept that am born to stay alone
Accept your own self, loving yourself to the utmost.
Just donβt change yourself to fit into the person you arenβt, because people have been toxic to you. You know who you are, you know youβre real and thatβs enough.
You can share & express if you feel like it
I know changing is not a good decision,but am tired of suffering
I donβt know self love, am selfless person
Uhm, I guess you are just one person away from changing your perspective. Just one.
We just need one person to change our narrative.
And Iβm so so glad to tell you that, just be patient and authentic AND understand and judge otherβs. Yes you have to.
Judge others. Please. You canβt be vulnerable, raw and innocent with everyone. No. Judge and pick people. Iβm not telling you to stop being Kind. No be Kind. But donβt be vulnerable and raw in front of everyone. Pick right set of people, open up in front of them slowlyβ¦ Check whether they deserves that or not, do they reciprocateβ¦ If yesβ¦ Gradually move forwardβ¦ Else just move away.
Being emotional and kind is a superpower, but donβt let others use it against yyou. You gotta learn how to use it, and Iβm sure you will. Just please be kind, good, emotional. We need more people like you, trust me. And thereβs someone exist who needs you, okay?
And I am losing hope of getting that one person
Just stand strong, okay??
I wish I could give you something which could make you hopeful, strong, and positive about the unknown futureβ¦!
I am tired of standing strong
So lean onto me for now, okay?
Take deep breath.
Hold on for a second.
Take break.
And the silence.
Lean? How ?
Uhmm, abhi m yaha hu, right?
We can talkβ¦
You can pause for a moment, and can talk freelyβ¦
Or just cry openlyβ¦
Whatever u wanna do.
No
Hn, as u wish, man.
I just wanna tell you, Iβm here if u need.
And just take pause. Itβs all gonna make sense, trust me on this.