Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

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A friend I met a year ago became more than friends. I tried to distance myself from him, I’m in a serious relationship and he has a girlfriend. I had to see him because of work for months. He was our delivery guy. He would find ways to get me to meet up with him after our store closed. Like, need to use my gym pass, etc. Everytime he would try to take advantage of me or ask me to buy him lunch or something. I didn’t loan him money he wanted to fix his Audi and I wouldn’t meet him most of the time when he asked. Last time he asked many questions about my relationship and asked what would my family think about him being black if we ever was to be a couple. That had never been discussed. Later, I felt again like he was using me, I messaged him and said I couldn’t see him anymore but would always have his back and wanted to remain friends. He blocked me on FB. Next day, he called and said he never liked me and that he would never leave his gf for me. He blocked me so he wouldn’t see me on messenger because it was too easy to reach out to me. He said I was cheap and he didn’t like cheap girls. He then said it was because I wouldn’t spend money. I bought him so many lunches and brought to him on his FedEx route because he said he was starving. I only caved to him a couple of times out of at least 50 times of seeing him. I tried to stay my distance from him because I was very attracted to him and I felt nothing good was going to come from it. I’ve never been a person to cheat and I really fell hard for who I thought he was. I feel so down in the dumps. I’ve always been confident and strong. Not sure how I let him get to me. He wanted me to buy him a new wardrobe so he could give his clothes to his uncle. He seems to have money. I told him no. I guess that makes me cheap 😔