A break up hurts a lot. You're always doubting yourself and whether you were enough or not. It takes a toll on your mental and physical health. It's not easy moving on, like people always say. 

Relationships

Feeling lonely and sad.


Lonely

Actually I need a suggestion
 next month mujhe ek exam dene ke liye out of station jana hai and my fully prepared feel nahi kar rahi hun, so what should I do, Mujhe Jana Chahiye ya Nahi Jana Chahiye..

Confusion

Wassup

Once my mom read my messages with my bf and let's say we were talking about kids actually i was talking about having  kids ki you know we will have 2 kids and all because he hated kids and i just wanted to irritate him..but now my mom always taunts me and calls me characterless because of that particular message....she says i don't wear good clothes i like to show my skin to boys and all...and you know what she says all of this thing in Hindi and in Hindi it hits different bro...it tears me apart listening stuff like this from my own mother i don't know whats her problem is...there are lots of thing i want to say but i don't want people to see her as a bad women...i know i may sound stupid but i also don't know what i am feeling rn

Is anyone else super bored??

Now&Me Meets

Study or marriage? 

Overthinking

okay, so I need some advice. for some background I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for a few years because of some bullying from a close friend. (I had some therapy for awhile) I was closer to her than our other friend was (close group of 3) but she delt with some of it aswell. we both had things going on in our families, like had decently shit Asian parents who expect too much but provide too little of emotional support. My parents also divorced and my grandmother died at the peek of my depression. I felt so alone so I relied on my friends for my happiness. without knowing it my own worth was nothing if It didn't please them. I didn't even know myself. we both left to go to a different school, I couldn't even say the word school without shaking. so I felt like I made the right choice even if it were out of my comfort zone.

I realized that even if we'd left we were both still torn from the things that happened. even I didn't realize how my usual calm self was frustrated at one inconvenience. I still couldn't sleep and if I did I'd sleep for days. I'm so tried of crying I just want to stop feeling this way. I do feel much happier and slowly finding my worth again but I can't help but overthink just one wrong gaze or look. "did I do or say something wrong", "it's my fault isn't it", "does she hate me?", "you're so worthless" I can't stop them they still hurt way too much. I feel like I'm always walking on eggshells and having to watch what I have to say or do. even if she does things that annoyed me I just let her, I do things I don't enjoy just for her company I make sure to tell her when I'm happy or proud of her. . .

today we had a generally good day, and I even asked to do some homework with her so I could help her out and we could do it together, I couldn't hear what she was saying over the call I told her and she sounded pissed. she just hung up after staying silent for a few minutes, I tried messaging her multiple times but she wouldn't answer after that she just hung up on me and said she wanted to play for awhile. I have tests and assessments coming up but this, this just makes me feel so anxious my anxiety is really spiking up right now. I'm always down to communicate issues. I understand it isn't easy for her. I waited 2 months on multiple occasions whenever she turns a cold shoulder at me. yes nonstop I asked her whatever I did wrong and apologies.

anything that helps please, even ways to stop feeling anxious would help. 
and is it normal I start shaking to the point I hear my heartbeat in my ears? or I start to feel my ears go numb when I feel this way? 

Depression

Should i wish him or not ?
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