8 March. One of the day I feel most undeserving. Who am I? Nobody.
Here, I am questioned what did I do? Why I didn't do? but what do I answer? "Idk". Ofc not. I am getting degraded in front of everyone here.
I just can't make up myself to do the things right. Everything is going wrong. 
Everything is ended. I don't want to work. No interest in anything. Not able to learn. And coz of social anxiety I can't talk to people. Work is affected. Making mistakes everyday. In front of everyone. They all must be laughing. Feeling pity. Which I don't want. 
Which affects me the most. 


How can we ignore those with whom we supposed to work with cooperation and where you don't have any value

If they don't love you at your worst then they don't deserve you at your best💭

3am Thoughts

Anybody there to blabber??

Don't be afraid to lose people. Be afraid of losing yourselfny trying to please everyone around you

Sad
What does it mean when someone blocks you after watching ur Instagram stories

Life

Meaning of human existence i asked!
Why we born and why do we die? Why no instructions manual and why no one to guide? Simply looking up into the sky and trying to find the meaning of it all.
So you're born out of love hopefully on an unknown planet somewhere in the galaxy..
You fight through your life trying to live each moment and making sense of it all..
Some days bring you happiness, some days bring you pain and i still ask why? 
Why am I made to go through it all?
I don't want the happiness, i don't want the pain..are we the chosen ones made to go through a test!
Maybe this is a round 10 and maybe I'll fail but okay let's say if i pass guess what - I STILL DIE but i think death is just the end of round 10, we still have plenty more rounds to go and that sucks.
So wait after we've completed the round we're given our scores at the gates and then were made to sit with the good ones or bad but you know right the good exists in the bad so now how do you make that judgement call I'm simply trying to make sense of it all...
So you say there is meaning for everyone, ofcourse like they have a Choice..
I don't wish to know one day that all of this was for nothing so i will find meaning every day with nature and with all that but this is simply a game for someone's pleasure with twists and turns and plots you never imagined..so they can have their laugh while you suffer.
So i seek that switch that i can turn off, reach the ones making us go through rounds for their pleasure.. simply ask them why?  
Maybe they'll give me their reason as a reward for finding the switch or maybe I'll never understand it's like a parent teaching a child why they have to be strict.
Maybe there's a bigger reason for all that but honestly I just feel we are bacterias living insides someone's gut helping them get better.

And think I am starting to experience physical effects with too much Pepsi. ￼

Addiction

I woke up with a pain in my chest...and my heartbeat was racing like it wants to get out of my body....it wasn't a bad day and I'm doing good but still I was trying to avoid somethings which is disturbing me lately...and back in my head it was all there and I ended up dreaming about them...it hurts...it hurts so freaking much...

Dreams

What song can you not stop listening to on repeat? 👀

We’ll go first: https://open.spotify.com/track/5enxwA8aAbwZbf5qCHORXi?si=t5DlxQrxSHWKn6ac9Qd9yw&context=spotify%3Asearch%3Aall%2520to

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