25/07/2021
I am stuck, I feel like I don’t have a purpose in my life. I am here only because I have to take care of others. Everyone is so selfish. It’s been a year in this new city in new county and I have no friends, I have no one to call my friend or my group. I feel very lonely inspite of boyfriend and cousins being there. I have lost how to connect with people. I almost every night have difficulty sleeping, I feel very lonely. Even if people love me I feel lost. I don’t love what I do. I don’t like sitting ideal, I don’t like to watch television, I don’t like gadgets, I feel like there is nothing left for me in life . I wish I could escape somehow this thought runs in my head every single day. I don’t know why but I just feel out of place wherever I go. I am done pretending, I hate social media it makes me feel worst about myself. I have no purpose and I am making my surrounding toxic. I thought I will have money I will be happy but that’s not the case now I have money but nowhere to spend it. I have pressure of loan, family, marriage, being independent yet being dependent. I want to run away where none knows me but fear more loneliness. What should I do? I am in a new country and city but a few people of my own
If you’re out of india, there might be support groups and all and maybe you can go there or idk seek therapy. I can relate to you.
