Mochi @mochi9boba
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It’s the last year of school and I’m exhausted. Practically, it’s the last month of school. Pre boards/ model exams just ended and they couldn’t have gone worse. Like I wanted to bang my head on a wall after each one. And then, voila! Practical exams! Like we are going to have continuous classes for the first time in two years for a whole month straight with people I don’t even know. How convenient. And that’s not all. We have to complete the project which was assigned to us today and have to submit it within a week. We have to study for the viva of that subject. The external from the govt school (Indian edu system) will come and ask questions that are not in our books, so we have to prepare for that. Then, we were given practical theory to complete which has to submitted day after tomorrow. We have to study for their vivas also. Also, we have to study the theory part of the syllabus cause the shit school I attend, has decided to take a second model exam cause they were sure we were gonna fail this one. Like they had literally completed the term syllabus a day before the exams started and wanted us to like, get a fricking 100 or something! And yes, this is me ranting. All of us are stressed right now so can’t rant to them, so you guys are my target. Hehe.
That’s not all. In biology, we have to give a presentation as well. Like the teacher is a sweetheart but ma’am!!! We are humans. We have a limit. Given that our mental stabilities are real low right now, but please! For the love of science! Don’t do this to us. And that was me being dramatic. I’m dramatic, you’ll get used to it.
These wretched exams had me not attend a wedding of my cousin and Gods only know when the next family wedding would be. Then I had a trip to my grandmother’s scheduled right after that so I could have gotten a long break after the exams, but nooooo. Why would fate want me to be happy? To be mentally in a good place?
Things are like this. From 10th March, my offline classes/ practicals/ suicide-prompting-events would be starting. We don’t know when the second model exams will start. We have our final exams will start from 26 April. The wedding was on 21 April (on a hillstation. The perfect holiday. The perfect vacation. Even the outfits were planned… :( … ) I was supposed to go to my grandmother’s on May 1 and return around June 3 for my sister’s birthday. And then the college entrance exams would be mid June. So now, everything is ruined. Haha.
Every time I see a book, I see it burn.
Every time I see my laptop, I wanna bang it somewhere.
Every time I see my phone with the pdfs open, I wanna throw it out the terrace and watch it fall.
Every time I’m alone, I wanna die.
So yeah…
Everything’s good!😶✌
Mochi💚
