Hope

Hey.....I feel really distressed and terrible. I feel deserted and i have just had me to talk to myself forever. No real person knows what I go through. I just won't open up to anyone about anything...idk why, I just can't. 
I'm just scared that if my very own family 
 can hurt me so much.... whether it's intentional or not, how much could the world hurt me if I opened up. It's just too scary to me. 
I know...I might sound irrelevant and stupid. But if there's anyone out there who can relate and understand even a bit of what's I'm talking about.....then please tell that it'll all be alright. Please! 

Depression

In this journey of yours, 
YOu will become diverse than before and that's what you need to accept in every step..😇


I feel something for a guy which is a little more than friendship but a little less than love... This kind of feeling is very new to me... I feel lost at times... 

Friends

I just really need ANY advice for my specific situation. I’ve looked online, talked to friends, and have a therapist but it still feels like such a hopeless situation and it’s really impacted my ability to properly care for myself. 

What you need to know: 
- I’m a recent college graduate living w/ my parents, can’t move out due to (1) the virus (2) no car/can’t drive (3) no job

- Can’t remember much of my childhood, but after getting a therapist last summer I’ve discovered that my mother was neglectful; often leaving me at school for hours on end, not answering her phone for school/friend’s parents, and purposefully pulling us out’ve after school programs because it was too much work for her

- My mother is a stay-at-home, narcissistic, hoarder who isolated me to only depend on her. Only recently has my father tried to intervene, but he’s also beat down from her calling the police on him (lied he hit her) and made the mistake of sharing a bank account with her (this was done halfway into the marriage to “show trust” on his part). 


My problem:
I’m stuck in my room all day because I’m physically affected by even seeing/hearing my mom after realizing all this awful stuff about her, it’s completely replaced the image I had of her. My dad is very emotionally distant as are my siblings, the friends I’ve reached out to sympathize but aren’t much better. I’ve been dealing with this for so long that it really feels hopeless and that’s affecting my ability to really do...anything. I sleep for longer/don’t go to bed, fail to take regular showers/brush teeth/skin care/etc, and avoid the kitchen and therefor food because she’s always there. I just avoid doing anything (job hunting, cleaning my room, continue learning to drive) because even if I make progress on any of those it doesn’t make me happy because the bigger problem is always there. Any tips? Similar stories? 


Narcissism

During childhood, Study is important
During college, jobs important
After job, marriage important
After marriage, look for house, car bla bla bla

How can I go for my feelings??
Always till now, I go for society feeling..😭

Anxiety

Dil aaya gadhi pe to pari kya cheez hai😛

3am Thoughts

Good evening jaipur
Happy chhoti Diwali 🌆 

Success

I don't know what came over and led me to this site, but as I kept reading all your people's thoughts it really breaks my heart, the fact that if there were someone to whom we can actually share our feelings without any filter we wouldn't have to come here hoping some stranger will understand us. 
I just want to thank this site, and to the people now who came to read my thoughts in here:) Thanks for at least giving your time to read this tons of shit I just said.
-Firefly out

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