You, yes you. You're strong. You're so strong. Don't loose hope. This will end, alright? This will not last forever. If you're going through hard time then take a deep breath in and out. In and out. Stop worrying yourself. That won't help you. My love, take care of yourself. This is not going to last forever. Take care. Just know, that me, from somewhere around the earth is praying that you heal and have a happy life.

Thank you so much. It really means a lot. Take care of yourself, okay?

3am Thoughts

I was there for you when nobody wanted you . I love you with everything i had. Now that you are back on your feet. You left me in the dust... I never been hurt this bad before. You pretended like I meant nothing. One day we are happy. Next day you cut me off and say you don't have time for me... Well when you needed me I FUCKING MADE TIME FOR YOU.. I NEVER HAD one excuse... You needed me I was there. Now when I need you.You have the nerve to tell me ... I BRING YOU DOWN... That I'm in your way... How fucking dare you ... Act like I'm supposed to just let it go.. ? I can ... But I will never understand how you can be cruel to the girl that just adored you . The girl who hitchhiked to you. The girl that you made believe you would always be there... Just yesterday, you were loving me, then the next day you made it so clear you are done and you don't need me anymore... I'm done begging you to love me .. you judge me so harshly and I only brought you up... I was too busy looking over your flaws while you were busy looking at mine. And yes I might sound crazy.... But you did this... You used me , and then threw me away.... But I forgive you ... Because that's what makes me Beautiful. And in the end I wasn't the problem.. you were..... I didn't deserve the way you let me down... So fucking harsh... It sucks because every kiss meant the world to me... Being in your arms all those months was like heaven .... So I'm done... Im done blowing your phone up trying to hang on to something you don't want... And I don't know why you dont want this beautiful thing we have.... But goodbye my love... Maby one day you would open your eyes and see me ... ❤️.. - P

Breakup

I knew this had to end. I knew we were going down different paths. I noticed the change in your priorities. I knew that losing me won’t do much to your heart. But I really wanted us to last forever. You were this sweet guy I met online who became a part of me, just like that. I felt damn connected to you. Let me add, you really know how to make someone feel special and I’m going to miss that in my life. I really loved you and I still do. I can’t stop thinking of those times, we were so close and I felt so damn lucky to have you as my best friend. I don’t know what had happened between us that we kinda fell apart since the past few months. Even though we used to talk daily,  I wasn’t satisfied with the conversations. I always had a lot of stuff to talk about but couldn’t talk. I kinda stopped talking about my life with you. Maybe you got invested in someone else. The ending was unexpected but it had to happen. I only wish the best for you and I wish I could thank you for all the times you were there for me. I love you.






Friends

It's so hard i can't remember anything from my childhood... I wanna remember when i play with my mom and dad. Go to the walk with my dad.. When he gave me piggyride.. Run with mom and dad.. Eat ice cream with them.. And lots of things i wanna remember.. But i don't even know what i did in my childhood... Did i do any of these with my parents??  

Exhausted

Heyaaa…!!!
To every individual out there..this time too shall pass..!!!
Do not ask why me.why always me..???
Just keep trusting the process..
It is happening just because you wanted yourself to grow stronger…!!!!
It will take time,but it will be worth it.
You will cry ,scream and what not..But it will be worth it.
Just flow with it,Stay attached to God.People may leave but he won’t..Ahha not at all.
He wont leave your back..!!!!!!
Cheer up..!!!
Everything happens for a reason…!!!
Sending lots of blessings…!!!❤️

Coming Out

Hey A 
I really miss you. I know we haven’t talked in a while. I just want you to know , I think about you every single day. I know we have hurt each other like anything. But I had the best 2 am conversations with you. I think I fell tor you. But it’s okay. We both have moved on before , we will now too. 
Atleast we are under the sky. Just missing you more today. I hope you haven’t forgotten about me.
Yours R

Memories

You are going to feel down most of the time in this year, and the next and the next. You are the only thing that will be holding you back from falling. You might have loved ones to hold, but I speak for those who genuinely do not have anyone to hold their back. 

Wake up and know that it is just you, it has always been you.
You don't need to thank anyone for your success, but yourself. 
You don't need anyone, cause you have had your back for a very long time,
No storm can harm you, no mountain can crush you.
You once bared the pain of child birth, without having to give bare one.
You swam in your ocean of tears...
but here you stand, by yourself, when life moves slowly for you, watching you succeed but wrath in pain at the same time

You did not have that friend or family to talk to when you had something great to share, you knew that people would genuinely not feel happy for you, so patted your own back and smiled to yourself. Your successes are a secret, and your failures are a milestone.

Sometime, we have that family, but do we really have them? - this ones for those who DO NOT have anyone. 
Yes we exist, I exist.  
I don't remember a time I had anyone by my side. I sometimes ran out of food stock and woke up to eat stale cake that someone gave me once. I stayed in bed and did not exert energy cause I knew I'd be hungry.

I'm fine today, but I know that the people around me don't care anymore so I know that those dark days will come back once to haunt me. 

I don't feel obligated to help the people around me anymore, but they feel the obligated to help me help them. LMAO

I help, i will continue to, because I am that person.

I have endured rape, physical abuse, physical abuse by family, by partner, by school friends, bullied, black mailed, touched, made feel small, being stereotyped. 

These are not scars I carry, but these will always be wounds that decide to bleed from time to time, and I only have my self to mop it up. 

No, I have not lost love, no I am not numb, I know you aren't either.
I dont know why, i dont have the answer to this question.

Is this all a part of the plan, or do we start believing fate and not faith?

To us, out there... you are all you have and you don't need anyone. Your success is yours, your pain is yours





Emotional Abuse

Every cycle comes to an end, but the pain of the unavoidable end doesn't hurt. At least not as much as it hurts to know that moving on to another phase in my life means leaving you behind, not that I want to but is almost a defined fact that soon enough you will be just a memory, a familiar name from those good old days.
Maybe it’s for the best, maybe it means it’s finally time to leave behind all the unresolved feelings that your name evokes deep inside me.
But it still hurts.
And I’m not even sure why.
Maybe because I love you, or have loved you somewhere along all this years. I don’t know for sure.
Maybe because no matter how much things changed you were always there, a strangely stable presence for a somewhat weak relationship.
But it hurts especially because of all the times I failed to leave you behind in the past, even though I always knew it was for the best.
Nothing lasts forever so how could I expect us to? But you were there, and every step I took hoping to get away I always ended up closer to you.
I don’t even know what you are to me, especially because I have no idea what I am to you.
And even if I try to hide it, I still hope you know that you occupy a big space in my heart, and I truly hope that there’s a space for me in yours.
Above all the biggest pain comes from knowing that in ten or some years, I may hear your name, and it may even sound familiar, but I may also not. And then we wont be friend, colleagues or god knows what, we will be strangers.
And then I will finally have let you go.
Even if it hurts.
Even if it breaks my heart.
Even if you never find out (either because I never understood or because I never told you) how much you mean to me.
And that’s why I need to let you go.
Because my head can’t be forever hung up on what we could have been if I had at least gathered up the courage to tell you.
But I didn’t, and I am still deeply attached to you.
Because no matter what ups and downs we might have had, I will be forever grateful to have had you by my side for so long.
And I hope someday I can tell you all of this.
I also hope we can have a proper goodbye, because hopefully the pain of leaving you will hurt a little less if I have the conscience that I at least said goodbye.


Relationships

I DON’T KNOW WHO WANT TO LISTEN TO THIS BUT. EVEN IF NO ONE HAS EVER TOLD YOU THIS I HOPE YOU WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER
- YOU ARE WORTHY
EVEN IN YOUR DIFFICULTIES, THIS IS A SEASON THAT HAS TESTED YOU FOR TOO LONG AND I KNOW IT'S NOT BEEN EASY FOR YOU TO KEEP HOLDING ON BUT HERE YOU ARE MY FRIEND, BRAVE AND STRONG, KEEP
GOING DESPITE IT ALL.

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