you know what i feel like im done with people. i used to put in a lot of effort in friendships, realized that im not getting the same energy back and hence i reduced my efforts and now it feels like they dont put in any efforts. and it fucking on earth kills to see them address like a hundered of people their bff and you are nowhere on the list. i dont know but i feel im losing friends i never had.  ik its weird... 


making friends and socializing isnt a prob, but seeing people with whom you used to feel like home, making you feel cold and deserted is the problem. 


Friends

I'm the backup friend in a friend group.

Teenagers

I feel more alone than I have in weeks. I keep myself occupied as much as I can so I can forget about this sadness I feel. It’s constantly lingering. I wish I could talk to about how I feel with my “friends” but they don’t care much about me or my feelings. They just want me to be present when they need me. For weeks now I’ve just been avoiding everyone cause I honestly just don’t want to show up for them anymore since they can’t have the decency to show up for me. It’s honestly k*ll*ng me inside, but I’d rather be hurting alone than putting myself through h3ll for these “friends”. Sucks to have to go through this alone… 

3am Thoughts

I hate those people who ignore their friends for their bf or gf like cmon guys we understand that they are too an important part of your life now but we also care and share the same love with you. It really hurts when you always choose your significant other over your friends.

Relationships

From the start of lockdown I started losing my friends and the only friends I have a starting to keep distance from me it’s like I want to tell them how I feel and everything but all the things which are going in my life I just don’t feel comfortable talking about it to them like they don't give a shoulder or an ear to me.. Whereas I always help them out  in any situation . I am not mean bt you always feel right when you feel for someone you too want back the same emotion from them. 
It feels so lonely 😔. 

Lonely

So I have theses 3 friends were like a group ig and I’m always left out they tell me I don’t do anything but mess around I don’t really I just want them to laugh at my jokes smile but no instead they point out my insecurities and when where in a group project they leave me out and say I don’t do anything how I’m a supposed to know if you don’t tell me what to do and leave me it’s honestly messed up I don’t know what to do anymore I want them to accept how I am and be part of there group I feel tired of waiting for them.

Never have I ever created fake scenarios in my mind at night which leaded to a total breakdown. 
(I have)

i have so much friend issues, at starting i was very helpful and easy to communicate even if someone was fighting i say hit me what you want to say just say it to me just don’t fight please.For sometime it was good but after sometime they used me make fun of me ,next year those friends get less and we made a group 2 of them still use me for there work,next year whole class get one as a unity and help each other but also that time they use me for hiding something for telling lie to somebody they choose there boyfriend and not me who always help them, they always get shy when they were with there bf and take me with them and even there bf says "you are spoiling over privacy"it was not my mistake i said to them no but still,next year when i get fail in class and they all passed they forget me they ignore me i realize finally they were snakes betrayed me use me,but still in my class there was 1 who was my friend we became BFF and after sometime 1 get in our class not it became TRIO WE WERE SO HAPPY,enjoying away from those betrayers but next year covid-19 year started 1 one of them started talking less i don’t know why we even get 3-4 fights but i still control i tried but she never she thought when school will open every thing will be normal but its not anymore it was not like when it was in starting next year again still covid 1 was left we were getting more close but she is like when she need me she talks to me or every second she wants to talk to me every time those old Qs lunch?what?morning?get up? sometime i think i’m needy greedy who needs perfect and blaming everybody,not myself but i don’t know who is right and whose is not but yeah for 1st class to know i still got a friend who is still with me once i don’t talk to her that much but i always cared and she too we always ask each other and now she is with me we talk every hour. i know not every friend is for always and like you just i need a friend who will with me for long.

I am just now happy with my life. I have a lot of things going on with me. I have no friends I have no one to trust with whom I can share my feelings with. I have no true best friend. I have no people that are actually mine I feel like the the people who are staying with me who are talking with me are just talking for the sake of my heart just because they have promised me just because they say that I am their friend just because I have no one else with whom I can talk with. They don’t talk because they genuinely feel connected towards me. So I had this best friend of mine who was literally very close to me and I thought that the person is my best friend but no that person have a lot of friends and I think they just say that I am their friend for the sake of my heart I don’t feel like living now I am just done toh everything I have no true friend and I want a person who genuinely is my friend my best friend from the bottom of their heart all my other friends make me feel alone made me feel left out and it sticks it hurts 

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