you know, it’s actually shocking how I am comfortable in my own company. People say this pandemic was the worst period of their lives, but for me. I grew happy and more happy in my own company. anxiety did hit me like a fooking train, but I am sorta okay with how I turned out atthe end of the year.
but, as the saying goes ‘nothing lasts forever’ thats’s how it was for me. Got into bad company, and did something that only ruined my life, but made me hate myself to the extent that I start calling myself degrading names. I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror. All the self confidence I had crippled. I start delf harmed. Atleast it made me not numb. I had anxiety attacks and still do. They are rang random, whenever I am overthinkig or just doing something. My heart starts beating at a really high rate, I get the sudden urge to cut.
I had anxiety. I felt like whatever I would do, everyone was watching me. That I had to be likeable for people not to hate me I still have these thoughts. I have anxiety, I don’t say it out loud cus for some people I am just over acting.
I’ve got Anxiety. I am socially awkawrd. I don’t love myself, but I want. I want to quit self harming, but it’s hard. It’s hard when all you want is for the pain to be numb, to not feel anything.
Mary Gold @jessicavictoria
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