Y'all. I am fr so done with my bf rn. I told him to send me a picture of him, he sent me a cute pic he took in the snow back in January (which surprised me, I didn't know it snowed in India)
Y'all. I kid you not. He's for real wearing sunglasses. I asked him why he says, Idk, I just like shades lol. 
This man. I stg if I didn't love him smh

Oh, guess I never thought of it like that. 
He's such a goofball, he always has them either on or sitting on his head on hanging on the front of his shirt, 24/7. I like to pick on him cause of them, he's cute with them on though :P 
Oh really? I had no clue! I dont remember what part of India he is from

He told me one time, I just don't remember off the top of my head

Boyfriend

I hope whoever you are and wherever you are, you’re holding on. Its also completely ok to let go sometimes. You’ll get back up there, because as Mary Pickford said “this thing we call failure is not the act of falling, but of staying down” you’ll get back up.

Mental Health

End of another day!! Much better feeling than yesterday.. I guess I am winning but slowly.. thu thu thu.. nazar na lage bc 
😝😝

Growing Up

Couple moths ago i came out to my mom as bi and my friends the year before.....now how do i tell her i just realized im a lesbian and i told one friend but now im kinda scared to tell my mom im a lesbian. You cant lie tho theirs something about the femininity and maturity of most girls that hit different that childish highschool boys that all dress like puppets....🙃

Coming Out

Wish me luck guys, gonna gear up my preparation from today. Thanks in advance ☺️✨

Exam

hey 
the quarantine is getting me I think. I'm not a person with many friends but when I used to go to school at least I had some interaction with other people than my family. at that time I use to think that it just men I'm not used to spending that much time with my family 
I have a girlfriend who is my only friend n now she too is not able to talk to me. she does not find me interesting 
my older friends are not talking to me for the reason that I don't know why 
I just sleep eat study a little bit n watch series n movies 
I feel very lonely I just want someone of my age who is not annoying to talk to me
in my school everybody is just talking about girls fuck dick etc which I know is messed up but that who they are n I want someone to talk to me just of emotional purposes 
so who so the person is reading is a 1 to 18 years of age n just wanna talk pls message me 

Family

LOVE yourself first and everything else will fall into line...We spend most of our time in finding our soulmate, a love partner... but we must first focus on discovering our soul and that can be done only through SELF LOVE

Here are 5 ways to practice 
Self love 

1st give yourself time to rest

2nd write three things u like about yourself self in notes or in paper’s 

3rd make some art

4th start journals 

5th listen to your favourite songs 
And bajans too

6th eat your favourite food 

Self Love

For seven years, I have put up my joyful façade. I am so tired of myself, I cannot make myself happy and satisfied. There is always a self doubt, self depreciation; it is as if I have fallen out of myself. 




Anxiety

This guy at work was a good friend of mine. We had hit it off nicely as friends but then he started obsessing over me. He had feelings for me but I was in a relationship so I had to say no. He kept saying I'm amazing and the best person he has met. Fact: I'm not. He just amplified the image he had in his mind. A year later I had broken up and I was single so he asked me out and we started dating. 
I didn't like some habits of him like basic hygiene or the way he treated waiters but I kept going calling him out to work on those things. I think I wasn't even attracted I was a bit depressed (bruises of past relationships) so I was scared to be alone and tried to make it work.
Within a month I got drained. I spoke to him  about his commitment plans and he started talking about how his family won't agree. He dropped hints about splitting up. 
This guy literally begged me to be with him and now when I said yes he doesn't see a future with me can you believe this? 
Anyway I told him how its a good idea. And that I thought we weren't compatible. I felt guilty for saying yes as I wasn't really into him or happy at all and that's just unfair to both of us. 
He expected me to say something funny all the time and keep him entertained. I don't mean to be rude but he had little ideas for fun. I got tired because he used to suck up all my happiness and energy. His obsession got to the point of me blocking him. I tried my best to explain him both peacefully and sternly that we don't belong together. He wasn't just ready to accept. He suddenly felt he can work it out and convince his family. 
Guys tell me if I am wrong. I think the only reason I rushed into a relationship with him was because I was scared to be alone. We are very opposite people and I realised that I can't be with him. We two weren't meant for each other. He just wouldn't understand. It added so much stress. So I had to block him. He used to make it so dull at work that everyone would look at me if he's upset. So I had to unblock him feeling sorry for him, he begged me to at least let him be my friend. I personally think that you shouldn't be in touch with someone you're trying to move on from. That's toxic and torture. But he begged me so I stayed friends with him (Otherwise he would start crying in public and stuff and make me look like a bitch in the office) . And once I started being normal to him since he user to cry all the time. He started hitting on me again. When he flirts with me I get so disgusted I feel like punching him in the throat. He believed I will go back to him and we'd end up together. This block unblock went on for 3-4 times everytime he crossed the line. I felt sorry for him as he doesn't even have good friends. Worrying he might indulge into self harm. We were at a party one day after work and we all were a bit drunk. He tried to force himself on me and I pushed him away. I lost all the sympathy and completely cut him off. Such a jerk. No means no. 
This time I haven't unblocked him. Luckily I have switched company so I don't have to see him. He seemed toxic to me because he said things like "I care for you and would want you to be happy" at the same time won't let me live my life peacefully. He said he wants to be an important part of my life just the way my best friend was and is scared that if I drift apart he won't be holding an important position. Sounded more like "I want to control you". I got some job offers in a different country but he didn't let me switch manipulating me into thinking its a bad idea. I had always given him the benefit of the doubt hence it took me a while to know his true intentions. After I cut my ties with him, stress reduced a lot. I sleep peacefully. I am following my passion and doing great at my work. I don't want to unblock this person ever. What are your thoughts?

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