yaar kitna difficult hai ye hide karna that I've  a crush on youuuu....aur nahi hota ek text send karne se pehele 100 baar soch & risky text ki himmat hi nahi hai....I'm not kinda a guy who can hide such thingsssss🥲😩...yeah so I do have a crush on you! bas 😶


I TEXTED THIS TO MY CRUSH THOUGHTS ON IT PLEASE...she haven't read yet

In case she said no you gonna be freind zoned so bad
 

Bestfriend ne gaali diya tab jake itni himmat hui

Abhi ke liye let's not give it a name plz
Frnds rehte hai aage ka aage dekh lenge.....she replied 

Crush

🥲i don't known how to start🥲...
But i feel today like...sb kuch khtm krdu...
ni pta kyo...aj yhi soch rhi ki kya koi be ni asa..es duniya me jo merko khone se dare...jo mera ho bas...jiske liye m kuch toh important hoyo...vo mere liye be vhi sb feel kre jo m kro...🥲koi toh ho samjne wala...bs messsup kr chuki m...ni krna tha kissi pe be trustt..glt kr bhati 2 pal ki khushi ko dekh ke 💔 jo ab drd de rhi 💔

Loss

Okii, here is my story :) i have a really big circle of friends but I'm not close to anyone, Please suggest me something kii mere kuch bhot ache dost bann jaye ya frr bs mujhe ek ladki miljaye jiske sathh m sachme apni dill ki baate rakh skuu...💔 Ab bhot heavy feel hota h....dost h but kuch bta nhi skta unhe...

Insomnia

Y 13 year old relationship advice kaise de sakte hum 23 k hoke samjh nhi aata kuch ki kya bolna chaiye kya nhi 
Agree or not ?

3am Thoughts

Bhai tum Single - Child jee kaise lete ho? 

I was never alone in my life.. Hum 3 bhai behen hai.. Aur humesha koi na koi hota hi tha ghr pr - Timepass k liye.. 

Yaar yeh phli baar h jab m akela ghr pr hun with parents.. Esa nhi h kabhi akela nhi rha.. College k liye m bahar hi rhta hun, abhi ghr hun After Graduation... Lekin bhaii sahab, tum Single-Child kaise jeete ho yaar? Mtlb Mummy - Papa se kya bolo? Thodi baat ho jaaye, firr toh mujhe ajeeb lgne lgta hai khaali baithe baithe.. Unki tabiyat bhi thk nhi rhti toh darr bhi lgta hai, bht zyada. I'm soo scared na honestly. I cant even express. 

Okay Lets come back to topic, ki bhai batao yaar..Mera toh mann hi nhi lgta ghr m.. Mtlb timepass hona toh chahiye koi, faltu ki baato k kiye, ladne ke liye, kisi ki udane k liye.. Huhh.. 


So I used to take CAT ki offline coaching from TIME Delhi. Now, since my undergrad got over, I came back home. Aur kahin padhai nhi ho ri hai. Mtlb it’s hella difficult. Merko lagta tha ki na padhna is very easy par kuch samajh hi ni aa ra hai yr. Mtlb itna saara syllabus hai. Online class ka time saala 8 P.M. to 10:30 P.M. It’s difficult guys. Mai jab PG me thi toh mai itni pareshan thi merko lagta tha ki ghar me toh padhai bht easily ho jaayegi. Par bht mushkil lag ra hai yr. Bht difficult.

Stress

Itani bhykar sardi ke baad thodi kam hui he to ye udaasi wala mood kyu ho raha he feeling like i m useless 

din morning me 6 baje start hota ha, 6am baje utho, 7am baje shop open karo, 1 PM close karke lunch karne room par jao, khana bano, so jao, 4 baje shop open karo, raat 10 baje close ke room par jao, khana bano so jao, same routine every day, na koi holiday, sometimes I feel that I’m working like a robot,
Na friends ha pass me, na family,
Shop par bhi akela hu, vese papa ha pass me, unse kaam ke alwa kisi or topic par syad aaj tak koi baat hi nhi huwi, … Friends sab india me goverment jobs ki prepration kar rhe, to unhe bhi jyada diatrub nhi kar skta, khabhi sochta hu kya mera bhi prepration cchhodne ka decision shi tha ya galt, jab khabhi friends se baat hoti ha to bolte ha, shi ha tu shi time par nikal gya oman, warna india me prepration ke chakar me pada rahta, …, khabhi sochta hu itna padhne likhne, ke baad shop me kaam karne ka decision khi pressure me liya gya galat kadam to nhi tha, … ,
Money bhi life survival ke liye bhoot important ha, pata ha, …
Par uske liye, family, friends, khud ke liye time, sab kuch hi cchod diya to baaki kya baccha, … ,
Man itna niras hone par khud ko khafi baar smjhta hu, kitne logo ke pass kuch bhi karne ko nhi, tere pass khud ka kuch karne ka to ha, kitne logo ke pass 2 time ka khana bhi nhi ha , par tere pass to ha… ,

Kitna khud ko samjhauu pata nhi, par fir kuch din baad ye hi feel hone lagta ha, mene life jina cchod diya ha, bus kisi program kiye huwe robot ki trha chala ja rha ha, …

Kab tak chalta jayega pata nhi, …

Anxiety

Yeh mumkin hai ki sab badal gaya ho tera
Naya rishta, naya woh ghar, sheher naya ho tera
Nayi duniya me, yh yaadein nahi aati kya tujhe?
Tere is ghar ki grihsti nahi bulati kya tujhe?
Kya tujhe ab bhi raato me ghumna bhaata hai?
Kya aadhi chaay, aadha sutta, tujhe kuchh yaad ata hai?
Kis tarah ki khushi me tu gumshuda si ho rakhi hai?
Tu kaha hai, kis jahaan me, tu kahaan kho rkhi hai?
Tu fir mat aa, mai woh nahi hu ab, tu nahi chahiye
Yeh kuchh sawaal hain, jawaab bas sahi chahiye
Yh ik dum se hi kyu hua ki sab badal sa gaya
Teri himmat, tere woh shabd, mera wehem kaha gaya
Woh hr ik raat, jb kehti thi tu takiya hai mera
Mere bistar pe ab kabza nahi dikhta hai tera
Tera chaadar, tere kapde, kaafi kuchh hai yaha pe
Kafi jaldi me thi, dekha nahi, kya chhut raha hai
Reh gaye peechhe yh kuch cheezein, aur unke sath tera Beba
Kya mai sach me tujhe ab yaad nahi rehta??


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