woh sari batein jo humari bech honi thi, ab tum kisi aur se kar rahe ho :)

Heart break I can understand. Time sab kuch theek kar deta hai hm logo ko bhulte nhi yaadein hmesha sath rhte hai but dard hm ho jata hai ap care karna band kar dete ho socho aagar aaj vo uske sath khush hai ap ke bare me soch bhi nhi rhe kya sach me pyaar karte the ke nhi aagar vo apke bare me nhi soch rhe to usko yaad kar ke kya hoga bs apne ap ko dukh milega apne ap ko busy kar lo study me ya job me yeh time bhi jaldi he nekal jayega take care

Love

Anyone up for helping me get sumthin off my chest? Or helping me with advice without judging me? 

Overthinking

From the last 2 months i changes 2 jobs worked each day. But I did not get the salary from each one of the employers. Hve been struggling financially these jobs even though really underpaid was my last hope. I was already depended on my parents for small stuffs now it feels really guilty to ask them again. i dont know how to get out of this. And above all i started getting corona symptoms from the last few days now i'm stuck at home, hopeless. I dont know what to do next. 

I am in LDR, and I an so afraid to meet in real, what if they didn't find me attractive or pretty in real. 🥺

Long Distance Relationship

Depressed

Today I feel more alone than I ever have. In my story I feel like I'm the bad guy. 
5 year ago I met a woman I was lonely and depressed. I feel I love with her the second we met. But I had issues myself. We got close very quickly. She was pregnant within three months. During that time for I don't know why...I messaged an escort and said very inappropriate things. We stayed together I was a peice of garbage to do that to someone. I did the same thing to her two seperate times a year apart. Her trust in me was more than gone and she still stayed with me because she loved me and wanted to make this work. But there was other problems. My anger my tone of voice my guestures. .it was all negative and bad and I didn't treat her with the respect and compassion I would want my mother or sister treated with. She had extreme back pain and left work at covid and tried to go back only to not be able to work for a year to this date. Everything a out her changed because the pain was that bad. I was the complete opposite of caring and compassionate...I was an asshole. I didn't understand how she was feeling and I still had some anger problems and in my tone or the way I would speak. Eventually she told me I had to leave and I did and it was less than nice. For the following months I was nice to her in anyway possible. After some time we were able to talk amicably and share some feelings. So for the last four months my ex has come over when I have my son... I talked to a help line and tried changing all my negative behavior and the way I speak with my words and my tone. I found out my ex was still in love with me but didn't want a relationship with anyone but told me she couldn't be without me. But just as friends for now. But wants me to talk to her everyday...call her every night before bed if she'll talk...but I'll get txts and pictures from her everyday. She will not commit to me in anyway shape or form. Talking about " us " gives her more reasons to put up more walls. And she does so and I push her away a little more everytime. I've probably lost her for good now and have to accept it no matter how much u dislike it. I'm a good person and I've made a lot of bad choices. She's more than just a warm body to way but she is so scared from her past and the trauma I created she's broken now and it's my fault. If I had just been more compassionate carrying and loving I would have married her...I've done nothing but push her away. She wants many things in life but would prefer to live in the moment and not think about the future...think of us together makes her remember all the shitty times we had and the good times leave. 
She hates me and loves me
This isn't a positive relationship 
It's two sad people in life . I'm sad and have made about human being sad and feel worthless.
I love and miss her every second of everyday 
I'm not a good person. I've lost who I am I think... I just see this 35 yo man who grew up too slow.  


Depression

So i know this guy. He is just another normal guy. But i dont know i feel what if he likes me. 🤔 
What should i do??

3am Thoughts

It is really hard, years passed, yet I still don't know if I moved on, or on the process of moving on, or not even doing anything to move on. I feel like waiting again.., waiting for something that's probably not going to happen. 

Breakup

If I told ya ma secrets..
You’d never look at me the same. 🤡

Life

I have a huge problem letting go of smoking up. I used to never do it but with college stress and having people around me who smoked up I started doing it every day eventually. One time a day turned to three or four times a day and now I get so desperate when I cant do it.

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