Buddy @buddy123
Why this day shouldn’t be the worst day of my life…but why it is…dad scolded me like i amn10 yr old…he has never changed…i thought he is different…i thought he will change the way he sees me…but he still has that faerful eyes…filled with anger…and i dont know how to get rid of it…the kind of fear i never had in my life…those eyes filled with lava…like it want to burst me…wantdd to swallow me whole in one take…i do fear fear but was something i never had seen in my 20 yr life…it was like i was still the child who still had a lot to learn from his father…when ur fucking 24 yr old and ur dad scolds u like he had that scream held in between his thoracic cavity…why he do that…am i that worthless to him…do he even have smeone who he love abduntly… Without expecting smething…what is my worth in his life…does he even thing i am a part of him…the way he said things…the way i never feel myself mpre isolated from this world…is it like i never existed and i were i dont mean nothing to him… I know i said some bad things it is jst to be play cool in front of him…that might have triggered him…he do have a monster inside…still growing and burst when it had that chance…he think he own me…he thinks jst becoz he had genetically related to me…he had the ryt to ask and do things to me…my fsther i nevwr seen him apolozing he might evwn thinks of my family as a grp of waitress and waiters who are their to serve them…os this is all we r in front of him or jst i am making a big deal out of it…he never call to ask how i am amd voce verse i never counted on him…to be their for me…i have read 20 plus help book what does that tell me…i have seven months to make 65000 thousand rupess on my own…i am ready to be in thia wolrd of money…to get paid…well…
