Why my father is abuser? Why he shout & beats us everytime? Why can't he stop drinking alcohol? When my life will be okay? Why I can't live happily? Why? Why? Why? Why God hates me? Why? 

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Child Abuse

I hate my dad for leaving us. He's lucky my brother's not like me wanting to go to the city - work, strive, explore, learn. But what if he is? He'll get no chance because Mama will be left alone. I hate my dad. 

Family

I dont have a proper family.I lost my dad 2 years ago and my grandmother a year ago.now i have my mother and grandpa.I only have these two people in my life.my mom is very loud and i need her to be good to me.I tried to calm her but she never listens.apart from these I 've been in  a relationship from three years he was really good for two years and later he started to use me for money and cheated on me a few months ago.I had forgiven him even he abused me wid his words.He calls me now and then when he needs money i wanted to give up on him but he starts saying his problems and i couldnt let him suffer so i used to help him...i thought it was easy and okay but he is treating me like a shit and hurting me more wid his words.i told him i was not okay wid his words but he continues to shout at me very cruelly now it became very complicated i am getting really scared of him that i couldnt even say that i was hurting and dont call me..i also calls him sometimes because i dont have anyone to take care so i was scared to give up on him and i just wish that atleast he would talk to me wid respect...I know i had to keep distance from him but i was really scared to lose someone....I am okay and i dont have any anger on him for abusing me..i just need someone to comfort me and talk to me ...

Emotional Abuse

i don’t understand my dad. He’s so aggressive & angry all the time. He constantly shits on everything us kids do - yet expects us to willing want us to do “fun” things with him. 

Ive never had a day where my dad hasn’t ruined the mood. I’ve never felt the need or want to hang out with because I always expect the worst. 

3am Thoughts

Oh my gosh my dad is making me mad so much that I get short-tempered, like I didnt mind that he controlled the way I dress or who I can befriend or not but now he's trying to control what I eat and drink like what the fuck am I supposed to do?! I can't just let him control what I eat it's none of his fucking business how do I let him understand that he's an asshole. I'm literally underweight or skinny so why?

Anger Issues

Hi guys, an Indian girl here. I really needed a place to vent and pour my heart out in a forum that is non-judgemental. 

I have never seen my parents happy with each other. Always bickering, fighting, and name-calling and there have been rampant instances of physical abuse on my mother by my dad over the past 30 years. 

My mother comes from an extremely well-off family, is well-educated, an independent woman, and worked at a bank. My father hails from a not-that-well-to-do family, is well-educated, and worked in a senior position at a manufacturing firm. He is a narcissist, an egocentric individual who is slightly sexist too. The kind of person who blames other people for his failures and problems. It is taking me a lot of courage to speak up but my father has been so violent with my mother during their early years of marriage that one day he accidentally broke my mom's nose. He has beaten her up very badly that it gave her bruises all over her back, hand, and legs. My mother has often left home in the middle of the night and we took shelter in public places: sometimes in a temple, sometimes at a bus stop and my father could be least bothered about it. He had filed a divorce case once and we started living separately. I was 7 years old back then. I am talking about early 1999. Indian society has always been condescending to single women and I am talking about a time when it was not very common in India for middle-class women to leave their husband's homes and live on their own. We have faced backlash, and humiliation wherever we went. My mother has tried to shield me the best she could but society is always cruel. 

When I see the people I have known living happier lives, living their dreams, I can't help but get jealous and lament about the life I have never had. A traumatic childhood, unloving grandparents, being considered a burden, I have seen it all. I have been affected by the mental trauma inflicted by my father which has molded us for the worst. I have been in severe depression for the past several years, have no social life, no friends, never been in a relationship. My past demons are so dominant that it has affected me in ways I cannot imagine.

This is not a cry for help. I just want to get out of my past and live a better life.

Depression

Have you ever felt so much hatred towards your dad that you wanted to seize his existence or like him to vanish (possibly the nicest way I can put it out there) I hate him.. I do. It’s just killing me inside that I’m never able to say this to his effin face. My body hurts with all this hatred. 

 There is this guy who hates his father so much. He never listens to his father. He prioritise his friends more than family. I mean I think this guy is so stupid his dad loves him so much all he wants is his son listen to him. I mean his father goes to work supporting family and taking care of him. Why can’t this person show some gratitude to his father. Who you choose prioritise first Family/ Friends...?

I hate my father,everyday i wish he would die,he's so incredibly selfish  I hate him,i fucking hate him 

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